im new..im disgusting...battling with d voice in my head..

[aliana2009]

hey y'all....im 19 and dealing wit ana/mia going on 4yrs now = /
wuz 136lbs then 120lbs, now im 125lbs = ( = ( grrrrrrr in everything
that i do...sleeping, walking, sitting, EVERTHING! Im aware of my
fat!!! i c my body as unproportioned, fat, disgusting..ugly!!! i jus
want control of my weight...b thin & lean!!!!!! = ( it's taking such a
mental and emotional toll on me....cant stop taking diurectics
either = / im scared everyday it'l do smtin fatal 2 myself!!!
but i dont wanna stop till im at my goal weight..thats 109lbs!!!! i
neeeed support plzzzzzz = (

[thinwishes_]

Ana/Mia
I totally understand! I feel exactly the same! My weight and size is all i can think about!! It has been going on for 3 years, and it have been up and downs all the way. I feel so disgusting and fat!! I cry every time I look at myself.

I have been making accounts on all thinspo and ana diarys I could find on the net..to try find someone to talk to about it and hopefully share daily stats. I havent found anyone yet. This is so important to me, I had to make a hotmail account for it.

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Maby..If your intreressted in talking, maby sharing stats..
Just contact me.. mail/msn.
I'll support you!!

<3

[xAnaWingsx]

Maybe you can support me too? I'm having a time because my fav. teacher who's opinion means EVERYTHING to me keeps begging me to eat and it's hard to say "no thanks, I'm not very hungry." to her.

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