Why me?

[TheColorJulia]

I really just hate this... So much.

I can't do anything right... I'm a damn failure...
I ruin everything. And everything is always my fault.

I really wish I would just disappear. Everyone would be better off that way anyway...
I'm sick of people trying to fix me.
I used to think I wasn't broken, but the truth is, I just want to STAY broken.
I don't know how to live fixed... I don't know if I can.

I know they're trying to help... But it won't work.
You're just making it harder for me to be happy.
That's all I want is to be happy.........


I DON'T WANT TO DRAG YOU DOWN WITH ME.
I REFUSE TO.

I hope you know I love you......
I wish I didn't. And I wish you didn't love me back. and I wish you didn't care if I have eaten anything yet, and I wish I never answered when you asked.

I'm so sorry.

[giftedheart]

Your quote really sums it it. No one knows but you what you see but we do care and offer our support. I understand pain and being alone in a crowd of people. Take care of you and we are here if you just need to talk.

[TheColorJulia]

Ugh.

I just wish it could be easy for once.
Just one day.