I'm sinking and no one will save me ):

[Priscilla]

I can't really handle anything anymore
not only has this stupid thing hit an all time high of when i don't eat, i don't eat for days
and when i do eat, i have to throw it up and it's horrible
but i'm absolutely suffering in college aswell
i can't handle any of my lessons
i'm bunking most of them and falling further and further behind, which isn't good as i will never get into university at the rate i'm going
i can't handle this by myself, but i have no one to talk to about it
[my school councellor i don't feel comfortable with, or any of the regular teachers.]
my friends don't notice anything at all
even though there are a lot of signs indicating somethings not wrong
my mother's being a cow
i just want to go to sleep for a really really long time and to wake up to everything being okay

[mooncat]

I can't really handle anything anymore
not only has this stupid thing hit an all time high of when i don't eat, i don't eat for days
and when i do eat, i have to throw it up and it's horrible
but i'm absolutely suffering in college aswell
i can't handle any of my lessons
i'm bunking most of them and falling further and further behind, which isn't good as i will never get into university at the rate i'm going
i can't handle this by myself, but i have no one to talk to about it
[my school councellor i don't feel comfortable with, or any of the regular teachers.]
my friends don't notice anything at all
even though there are a lot of signs indicating somethings not wrong
my mother's being a cow
i just want to go to sleep for a really really long time and to wake up to everything being okay


sounds like you're having a very rough time at the moment. i'm sorry to hear that.

i hope in this forum you have found somewhere where you can express yourself freely, and hopefully find the support you need.

it's a great start that you are aware something is wrong. it's half the battle won. perhaps trying to focus on one thing, say your college work. aim to get one essay done by a certain date, or to catch up on the missed work from one subject. start will little targets, and then work up to bigger ones from there.

i'm sure your friends and family are aware of something, but the difficulty you are finding to talk about it usually works in both ways. they don't know how to raise it with you. it can be hard for them too as the majority of people don't know how to spot the signs of a problem, let alone deal with them.

keep your chin up, and stay positive.

although i am new to this site, i have been around ed for some time. i'm happy to chat via pm if you want someone to talk to.

all the best
andy

[Jacklinger]

I can't really handle anything anymore
not only has this stupid thing hit an all time high of when i don't eat, i don't eat for days
and when i do eat, i have to throw it up and it's horrible
but i'm absolutely suffering in college aswell
i can't handle any of my lessons
i'm bunking most of them and falling further and further behind, which isn't good as i will never get into university at the rate i'm going
i can't handle this by myself, but i have no one to talk to about it
[my school councellor i don't feel comfortable with, or any of the regular teachers.]
my friends don't notice anything at all
even though there are a lot of signs indicating somethings not wrong
my mother's being a cow
i just want to go to sleep for a really really long time and to wake up to everything being okay

I was at my most depressed in college too. I eventually dropped out and still turned out ok, I guess. Maybe you should consider taking the next semester off from college and just resting. Go to sleep, like you say, and wake up in time for the next semester. But, when we try to escape from our lives, very often, our lives end up escaping from us, and when we're ready to come back to them, there's nothing left of it, and you have to start all over again. But if you really need a new life, maybe that's not so bad?