I fucking hate being poor. I hate my fucking life.

[letsleavethistown]

So I've been real depressed these past couple of months because of this recession. My dad has not been able to find any work lately. My mom has a heart problem and hepatitis D so she's never been able to work. And I've been trying to find a job in walking distance from my house but since I'm 15 I feel like no one takes me seriously and everyone just threw my application out.
When it was back-to-school time all my friends wanted to go shopping and kept asking me if I wanted to go to the mall with them. But I told them that I couldn't because I didn't have any money. I was so fucking depressed every night, when my friends bragged about the new clothes they got and I was stuck with my old ones. Then as the weeks went by my friends kept asking me to go the mall or go out to eat or watch a movie and again I had to decline everything because I was penniless. I cried myself to sleep for a few nights.
This month track season was starting and I really wanted to do it, because I had a lot of fun doing this last year when I was in track, but my mom told me that I couldn't do it this year because we can't pay for my sports physical. She also told me that I won't be getting any Christmas presents this year because of the recession, which made me even more sad when my friends said that they can't wait till Christmas because of the presents they will get. I never told any of my friends that I'm dirt poor now because I would feel embarrassed. I know I sound like a selfish bitch, and should be thankful that I still have a roof over my head. But really I used to live in an upper-middle class status then middle-class now a lower-middle class, and it just depresses me to think of the days when it wasn't like this. Just needed to rant because I don't have anyone to talk to this about, I don't even want to talk to my parents because I feel like it might make them sad to hear this.

[369DuneBunny]

I 100% believe that you're horribly depressed and sad over money. Sometimes money = the world.
Money = life
money = everything
money = happiness

I feel bad for you that your mom is sick. And your dad got laid off. Its scary. Like you have no control over your life. Like you're out of control and there's nothing you can do about it. Like the world goes on doing whatever it does and stomps on humans mercilessly in its path, not caring who gets lost and battered in the whirlwind.

But money lies.
And so does the illusion of control.

The hardest lesson I've ever had to learn was to take my eyes off of myself and put the eyes of my heart on a secure concrete infallible eternity.

2 CORINTHIANS 6:9-10
9known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; 10sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.

[lovebexs]

i'm so sorry you feel like that :[
that really, really sucks. maybe you can do a job like babysitting or dog walking since people are more inclined to give jobs like that to teenagers. good luck and stay strong <33

[369DuneBunny]

lovebexs had a really good idea.

Go to school and print out about 30 flyers for babysitting.
say you charge 5 an hour and go around and post them on bulletins in grocery stores laundromats ... everywhere...

go to your local ymca and take a class for babysitting. they give out scholarships so you can take the class for free.

some health classes in high school also give out cpr training where you get certified... the babysitting classes do the same. they also certify you in first aid training.

if you go to the ymca or a place like that sometimes they'll even hire you... you can also do swimming training for little kids after your certification.

do you have a bicycle... do you have a hospital in walking distance ??? they always hire teenagers to work the cafeteria and food service.

[Jacklinger]

Letsleave,

I was raised poor. It's really not so bad. Please tell your friends about your problem rather than just pushing them away all the time. They might begin to think you don't like them anymore. If they just know you're poor, they'll probably understand. If one of them is a nice boy, maybe he'll even treat you every weekend to a movie and some new clothes, and you can go with him and your other friends when they go to the mall. Nice guys tend to be shy about rescuing girls because we've been told it's misogynistic, and can't assume girls need help all the time. So we need to be made aware very directly sometimes.

I knew a girl in high school who was very poor. But so was I, and I couldn't offer to take her anywhere special, so I never offered anything. I wish I had now; even if it was just to go to a park and look at the squirrels. We had a free public zoo in town too; could've gone there.

I agree with the other posters too. Maybe you can get a job babysitting for your neighbors?

And don't believe anyone who says "money is evil." Earned money is the greatest virtue there is, because it let's you live, and life is precious, isn't it?

[nathrakh]

Ive had poor parents for all my life aswell and i only got like a new pair of shoes once per 2 years. Didnt have too much clothes, had to wear mothers clothes even sometimes. And could never have any of the other cool things other kids got from there parents. I did get something special on christmas always tho, but my mother had to save up the entire year for that. Or take loans, both my parents have huge debts.

I dont have too much money to spend right now either. And dont live with my parents anymore. Rent a very small room, dont earn a lot of money. But my childhood atleast taught me to be carefull with money. And it taught me to be easily satisfied with little things. I dont replace stuff untill the old ones are broke or worn out. I dont spend money on expensive phones etc. Still have an old 20 bucks phone i bought 3 years ago and im still using a 4 year old ipod i got for free years ago, its nothing fancy but it works. And unlike everyone else in my family i dont have debts. And im used to having nothing, so getting something simple makes me happy already, while some spoiled brat getting the same thing would have just thought meh.

[Chew]

Coming from an upper middle-class family and hearing this makes me think & look at how my family does things & makes me feel almost greedy, object wise my family will always have the most up to date of everything & constantly throws things away that are in perfect working order..., the microwave wouldn't turn on one day for some reason but the next day it was working perfectly again, it still got replaced though....

But objects don't really mean anything & will never make me happy, I don't think I can imagine living without them though, I really wish I could help everyone in need like this. x