When you look in the mirror

[anaxmyxpassion]

What do you see?


Do you see a girl who's beautiful beyond words or do you see "her".

[Vision Thing]

I see a tired old woman. I'm seventeen.

[icicle]

I see a fat blob. Which, at a BMI of 20.9, may or may not be true.

[sjgirl]

i see a fat girl

my bf says im not, but i know hes lying

[Priscilla]

some days i'll look in a mirror and think, hey i look skinnier today.
then i'll glance away and back
and it's like my eyes are looking properly
and i see fat everywhere
my legs are the worst, i hate them
and my stomach
all look horrific in the mirror.
It makes me want to cry

[tartface_x0]

A Fat Horrrible Person. :/

[janey]

some days i'll look in a mirror and think, hey i look skinnier today.
then i'll glance away and back
and it's like my eyes are looking properly
and i see fat everywhere
my legs are the worst, i hate them
and my stomach
all look horrific in the mirror.
It makes me want to cry

this happens to me on an hourly basis. it's so fucked up.

[TheColorJulia]

I see two people fighting.

and I'm not sure which one I want to win.

There's the girl who looks nice today.
And then there's the lard ass who needs to be shot.

Do you think sometimes, we don't want to destroy the fat ass us, but the us that THINKS we're a fat ass?

I don't know.

[broken_doll]

i dont like going out.i am so ugly.everytime i look at the mirror makes me want to stay home i cry so much if only i had money to fix my fisical problems

[adorares]

It kinda changes on an hourly basis.
Sometimes I see a girl who's lost a couple of inches off her thighs and feels comfortable in the jeans she avoided for years because her legs looked awful in them, and whose stomach is so nearly flat.
And then, about ten minutes later, reality hits, and I think about how my new, improved self is still not the girl I want other people to see, and is so far away from how I want to look it makes me sick, and I think 'this is after over a stone of weight loss, and I'm still so f**king FAT!'.
Or I'll be having a relatively good day, and I'll see a girl on the tube or something and I'll be like 'one of my thighs has more fat than both of hers combined' and I'll feel awful for the rest of the day.

[loprotes]

Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a mental disorder, which involves a disturbed body image. It is generally diagnosed in those who are extremely critical of their physique or self image, despite the fact there may be no noticeable disfigurement or defect.

Most people wish they could change or improve some aspect of their physical appearance, but people suffering from BDD, generally considered of normal appearance, believe that they are so unspeakably hideous that they are unable to interact with others or function normally for fear of ridicule and humiliation at their appearance. They tend to be very secretive and reluctant to seek help because they are afraid others will think them vain or they may feel too embarrassed to do so.

Ironically BDD is often misunderstood as a vanity driven obsession, whereas it is quite the opposite; people with BDD believe themselves to be irrevocably ugly or defective.

[polkadotninja]

I don't know if I have BDD and if I don't please don't spurn me because I've seen how Anas react to Wanas. But when I look in the mirror I want to cry. I see a short unshapely blob of fat from the waist down and a (bizarrely enough) big breasted stick figure from the chest and up

[sazzlepops!]

i see someone i don't want to see. someone who should be a lot thinner and prettier but just isn't. no matter what lies people tell you..a mirror doesn't tell lies. I havent been out with my friends in such a long time...i hate looking/feeling like this! can't wait to reach my goal. :)

[gymnast100]

I avoid mirrors now because they just make me feel sad and angry. When I'm at training though we have those disgusting full length mirrors and when I get a glimpse of myself I hate myself. Because all I see is huge.

[dearbones]

I fucking hate mirrors.
Everyone say to me that i'm too skinny, but in mirror i only see a fat cow who need to loose weight, ever and ever.

[JustAStepAway]

It changes. I'll think I look ok and then look back in the mirror a bit later and see a huge nose, small eyes, lips are too small then they're too big. Ridiculous.

[Boy_cano]

i see some unfamiliar desgusting, overeating, fucked up person with the bmi of 21.7..

[BCherry]

I still see 210+ lbs. I logically know that I am way smaller than that, but it hasnt changed.

[Juni_Sunshine92]

omg I totally relate to that. I'll always see myself at my HW no matter what I do. It's depressing. Cuz I never really see my progress.

[Misfit]

Same here, I see myself still at my HW even tho its nearly 10 years ago and if I don't see that image I see myself 6 months ago. I mean the first moment I see the bones but changes shortly and the worst all the bullying words and so on coming back in my head.
And there are other days when I have to look at least 10 times in the mirror to see if I can still see the bones and how my tummy looks and so on.
Just like oh you ate/drunk something can you see it ?
Sometimes I think I'm looking actually not in a mirror, I'm looking at an old picture of myself where just the haircolor is keep on changing.
There were months when I hided my mirror and avoid to see my reflections.

[BCherry]

Even if I just drink crystal light it's like I can see it bulging me out farther, my skin crawls, and I just want to pull my hair out. It sounds so overly dramatic typed out lol

[Boy_cano]

I fucking hate mirrors.
Everyone say to me that i'm too skinny, but in mirror i only see a fat cow who need to loose weight, ever and ever.

your legs almost look like my arms..they are small.

[HollowedShame]

At my highest weight, I was 125 pounds, back in highschool. When I look in the mirror, I still see myself looking just like that, despite the fact that I've dropped over 20 lbs since then. Back then, I would have killed to even be at 105lbs, but now I just see fat. I have a sinking feeling that isn't going to change, even if I get to 95 like I want.

[FiercelyDetermined]

Does anyone measure themselves every once in a while for a reality check? I find this helpful. Also trying on clothes that used to be too small, seeing if they fit now, helps me to really realize that I am losing weight, despite my distorted view of my body.

[FightingTemptation]

At my highest weight, I was 125 pounds, back in highschool. When I look in the mirror, I still see myself looking just like that, despite the fact that I've dropped over 20 lbs since then. Back then, I would have killed to even be at 105lbs, but now I just see fat. I have a sinking feeling that isn't going to change, even if I get to 95 like I want.

I totally second this. 5'3", 125 all last year (grade12). Now I'm 105 and I don't see any difference what so ever.

I wish I could, but only sort of do on "thin days". afterwards its back to reality, and all i can do is point out every defect, and dream about what i'll look like when i lose another 10-20lbs...

bad days either start as bad days, or a thin day switches if i eat something i deem (in any way) "fat food". even the 50mls of veggie stock i had at 3 (the only thing i'd had up to that point) put me down and out, despite hitting my lowest weight yet. it then messes up my mindset and i end up eating crap. i made cookies (low cal, but i ate about 4 cookies worth of dough, 70cals total) and my mum made pizza and refused to let me leave the table unless I ate all of it. ETo view links or images in this forum your post count must be 1 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. i feel awful.

[loseme]

I see a complete LOSER. I'm shy, I have no spine, I'm a complete pushover and worst of all I'm FAT. All of me is ugly...I like nothing. No one likes anything about me either, especially my family. They ALL have reminded me of how ugly and inadequate I am. I just want to die. I want to be thin because at least that is acceptable. Nothing is right.