die a little bit..

[whereiswonderland44]

i cannot get over him. it was in high school. three years ago almost to the day. this is the hardest part of the year for me and all i want to do is lay in my bed and starve to death. we ended things on awful terms and it will be a year before i can even talk to him, if i want to talk to him, which i dont know about yet. also i have done some really terribly awful things with someone who i should not have and i want to die a little bit because of it. also i see his name everywhere and everything reminds me of him. ghosts even. am i insane or what. any advice. please help. alice.

[anonomousmia]

Sorry to hear about the break up. I can't even imagine being with someone for 3 years and it ending really badly. My bf broke up with my recently and he was the my first bf I actually properly loved, he made me realise what love actually is and I had never felt so strongly for someone or been so close to someone in my life. I thought we would be together a long time.

Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is, its going to hurt, alot. I'm still hurting and there are days when I just cry thinking about him, but other days I can get distracted and I seem ok. I know what you mean about things everywhere reminding you of him, and this will happen for a while, but it will get better. It will take some time though and for the next few weeks I'm guessing you'll still be down about it. You'll have good days and bad days, but the bad days will become less and less recurant.

Try to stay positive - I know thats easier said than done. But things will, eventually, get better. and I am a strong believer in 'everything happens for a reason'. I'm sure your relationship taught you things and changed you in ways you didn't realise and that whatever recent events have happened, you'll come out a better person.

Well my message sounds seriously cheesy *little lol* , but I guess its what I wanted to hear a few weeks ago. I hope your ok xx