Binging, cannot control...

[amor]

I don't know what triggers my binges. Stress, I know does. I waitress and nearly every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I binge after work because it gives me sense of relief similar to when I used to cut.

Until the overwhelming guilt sets in the next day. I'm okay when I don't work, like on the week days, but being around so much food, then getting stressed has led me to binging so often. I've gained like... 15 pounds. I'm still on the heavier side of healthy, but I'm so much fatter than I used to be.

How do I quit binging when I think to myself, "F*ck this. I'm going to stuff my face and forget and enjoy it."
I'll be all set to fast, restrict, even be HEALTHY, then that on the weekends. I used to have such little trouble, but... Now.

What have I done? How can I change this?
I've never felt more insecure, disgusting, or fat.

[peanutbuttercup12]

Have you considered therapy? CBT is really helpful when dealing with binges. Unfortunately you won't really get much help through the internet .... there's lots of websites detailing distraction methods etc, but they'll only work once you figure out why you binge (there's probably a deeper reason than stress). Best of luck :)