There is this demon residing within me, telling me to eat, eat, eat...

[belvatine]

And yet there is this beautiful creature telling me only fat people need food. But the demon always wins...

I am so tired of having an eating disorder. If I didn't, I am pretty sure I would naturally be at least twenty pounds less. I don't know.
All I know is that I need to lose weight before I have a full relasp and go crazy. I am sick, my mind is twisted like a bent tree and I don't know how to fix it. Chop it down? Do NOT chomp it down :P

Does anyone want to do the ABC with me? We could make a contest of it...I feel stupid wanting to do it, but I can't purge any more. Even though right now I want to purge....

49 days until Christmas tomorrow.

[Vision Thing]

This is something I can totally relate too. I don't even see it as a demon or a beautiful person, just voices telling me to eat or to starve. It's amazingly frustrating...

[anonomousmia]

aah, I'm so sick of b/p'ing recently. its been 3/4 times day this past week. i don't know what set it off this bad but its GOT to stop. I've gained weight and feel so shit about myself, i hate it.

I will start ABC with you tomorrow if you like. I have tried a couple of times but have failed within a week because I'm bulimic, so I need support lol. But yeah I'm so sick and tired of mia, I'm desperate to be thin again to.

Its actually now Sunday 8th here. Start it today yeah? xx

[saryndipitous]

Sometimes a voice says "I never want to eat again. Ever."

And then I eat something and I hear, "I want to eat forever and never stop." And then I remember the first voice, and feel guilty. Because that's the one I should be listening to.