Am I weird for wanting to look like a pre-pubescent girl?

[CAUTION.]

Don't get me wrong, I love my curves most days when the scale tells me I'm getting smaller and smaller. But to me, I'll never be happy until I fit into the Abercrombie Kids stuff- and that basically means I need to be a glorified stick, which is completely possible if I keep dropping the weight. Every time I look in the mirror, I always look big, and just keep saying, "If I looked like those skimpy 10-year-olds, I'd be pretty, I'd be finally pretty." there has to be something wrong with me.

[ItsMyLife]

i completely understand! i love wearing kids clothes so much... i feel angry with myself when i cant wear them. im 17 years old and i get annoyed when an age 11 top doesnt fit me! this is when i know i have a problem but its just something i have to live with really. im here if you wanna chat :D xxxxxxx

[bellinmyheadthinthinthin]

i wear clothes i used to wear when i was 10 (now i am 15) and they fit me. sometimes they are even big. i am so happy at these moments!!

[samyelloww]

I totally understand. Sometimes I really want to have the body of a kid. It used to be one of my main goals.

[bettybetty]

when i was anorexic i'd buy h&m tops in xs... and when those got a lil loose i'd go to the kids department and buy tank tops in like 146 (for kids at 4 ft 8 or something and i'm a lil over 5'5), and i think i would've been happy back then if i'd fit into even smaller kids stuff... so weird...

to add my irrelevant blurb from 2011: i'm now, no longer anorexic, and can't think of anything worse than having to shop in the kids department, and size 0 seems embarassing. i don't want to get to a 0 (25) again cause then people would look down on me and say eew scrawny anorexic chic.. i just wanna be a 2 (not much bigger i know, but at least a woman size, and 4's waaay too big, and 8 omfg i'm an 8 how am i able to walk and not roll... but i'd still prefer 8 to 00)

[Blue Spirit]

Yes. But really it's because I want to go back to a happier time. One of my main reasons was because I wanted to be a kid again. I didn't stop playing with dolls until age 14, I had to tell myself I didn't like them anymore and that I was too old for them.

[bettybetty]

i want to be a kid again too, back to 12 and never start with an eating disorder.. :(
but here i am 7 years later, big, and not much achieved in the meantime.. the thing is we can never go back to being kids.. and u'll never look like a kid again.you can't hide the years from your face, it shows in your face.. and i don't mean wrinkles, just the life you've lived shows in ur face, the way you walk..

[N.a]

maybe it's weird yeah, because most woman want sexy curves and stuff,
but I totally understand. I'm pretty curvy myself, I have hips and an ass and boobs
and I would love to get rid of those, to feel tiny and young again.
Maybe because an adult body asks for emotional maturity too?

[ricecakes]

i get soo jealous when i look at kids legs poking around.. they are just soo small. no definition or anything! i wish i was flat chested as well. i have tons of h&m kids tops and stuff too. i dont really know my size as i only wear kids stuff or size 16+

[bittergreen]

Yeah, I can relate to this as well. Although I'm a "normal" weight at the moment, when my anorexia was at its worst (when I was between 17 and 20; I'm 26 now), I was wearing clothing that I hadn't fit into since I was 7 or 8 years old. Even a few years after that, when I had recovered from the worst stage of my illness, I was still able to buy clothes meant for 12-year-olds.

Frustratingly, at 26 and after several years of struggling with overeating and out-of-control bulimia (mostly related to my severe depression and BPD), I pretty much look like a "normal" 26-year-old now... not underweight and not overweight. I hate it and am trying my damnedest to get back to something I find a little more acceptable. Not as sick as I once was, but I'd give anything to fit into some of my clothes from when I was younger. I'm not sure why, but I really do hate the idea of looking like (and being, for that matter...) a full-grown woman. Even the word "woman" makes my squirm... ICK.

[Bathory]

I personally wouldn't like to fit into childrens clothes, even though I've come close to that in the past. I feel much more attractive and confident wearing young adult things as opposed to something a child would wear.

[Ella_Rae]

I wear children's clothes. I totally get it. It makes me feel happy to climb down the ages. I'm not diagnosed with anything or think I'm sick, I just don't want curves.

[thegrayhairedchild]

I wear kids clothes. When I began losing weight I thought I would be happy with myself when I reached the low range of adult sizes but I wasn't so I kept going. Now I'm striving to get into smaller kids sizes. I've always hated looking like a woman with breasts and hips and curves. I want to be completely flat chested with no hips to speak of.

Ironically when I look at my clothes they look small but when I'm wearing them and look in the mirror I look heavy. I look like a chunky twelve year old and that's just not good enough.

[galaxy]

Weirdly I don't want to look like a child...I'm 5'11'' though, so it's not a reality for me. I definitely weigh less than when I was freakin 12 years old though, and wear a size 0, but it's not about getting skinnier for me now...I mean, I AM skinny. Still feel fat from some angles but that's just life, I'll never escape that. What I want to escape is my height...I have this naive hope that, after restricting long enough, my spine might crumple and I might get shorter like all you beautiful worthwile ladies. Sigh, wish me luck on this one.

[freeme.]

i get this amazing pleasure when i wear my 6 year old sisters shirt.
and my mom complains that its not healthy to be wearing a kids shirt.
youre not alone hun. we all want it. <3

[Bathory]

we all want it. <3

Erm, not everyone.

[The Hatter]

I hate the fact that I DO fit into/wear children's clothes. I'm 24 years old and it's damn near impossible for me to find business type clothing for interviews that doesn't look like I'm playing dress up all the time.

Casual wear, fine with some of it. Then again, this is why I do my shopping at goodwill. But I personally hate the fact that I look like I'm 8-9 years younger than what I am. And clothes factor in a huge part in how seriously you are received as an adult. It's a fucking nightmare for me.

[elzie]

Yes, you are weird. But it's not abnormal for people with EDs who want it.

I don't, I WANT to look like a beautiful WOMAN not a little girl.