How did your BED start?

[ancreatur]

I would love to read y'all's personal stories! I think it will be interesting to figure how these destructions start. Here is mine for now.

I used to always weigh a constant 44lbs up until the age of eight. I had started puberty (somehow relevant, lol) and it was summer. My dad bought buckets of coca-cola so I would drink a can a day. I wouldn't eat anything and my body became dependent on soda. later in summer, I turned to food during my depression (multiple factors there). I gained ~15lbs through that. i was so self-conscious and aware of my body, I starved myself for days on end. I almost died. I was forced into treatment, gained weight, and food began to fill the gaping emptiness inside. I was also introduced to the art of purging soon after my pathetic excuse of a "recovery".

Lather, rinse, repeat: "How are you, anorexia? I can't forget binges, either! Oh hello, bulimia. It's nice of you to arrive. Just in time, actually. We can enjoy this tea party altogether now." Ever since then, it's been a losing cycle between aforementioned disorders.

[Melody-Muscle]

When I was younger I used to be really quite thin and I was clever and hung around with the boys at aged 7ish. And then these girls started bullying me because of it and I just didn't like the fact that because I was clever and I danced that I was less of a person. And then I just started to eat because it comforted me I guess, when they'd say things it felt nice that I knew I could just get home and eat something and be happy.
And I guess that's it.
When I went to secondary school I was a bit overweight because of the binging and so it happened again and I just carried on really. So now I'm a bit overweight but it feels like loads.

It just shows really how much something somebody says to you when you're young can really affect you. Because of the bullying it made me depressed and so I binged and fasted and it's just made me paranoid of leaving the house because I feel like someone's gunna say something.

[SisterSomeone]

I was anorexic (but only slightly underweight) when I first started binging. The week before my first binge ever my aunt and uncle who live in Austria came to visit, and they brought along a bunch of candy from there. We don't eat a lot of candy anyways, so mom put it in the cupboard and everyone just forgot about it.
Then I had a fight with my dad about how skinny and sickly I am (I wasn't! 1-2 kg underweight, nothing drastic), I got upset and before I know it, I'm stealing the candy from the cupboard. Then I went for a walk, bought some more chocolates, came home and said I was hungry, so mom made me scrambled eggs.
At night, after everyone went to sleep, I came back downstairs and ate the rest of the candy.

Then next day I decided I wanted some more junk in my body. :( At the time it was fun and enjoyable, because I could afford to gain a few and still stay within my comfort zone. But somewhere along the way I forgot how to stop. :'(

[Victorian]

I'm the textbook example of a compulsive over-eater turning binge eater I'm afraid. In my childhood I had it drilled in my mind that I had to clean the plate, so I gradually lost the sense of feeling full. On top of the adult-sized portions, I liked snacking, so you can easily imagine that I ended up a chubby kid. Scrap that, an overweight kid. I had a normal period when puberty kicked in and my eating could not catch up with my growing up, but when I was between 13 and 14 it did. That's where COE turned to BE, because teenagers can be quite cruel and food was the only outlet I knew.

I'm 20 now and consider myself on the road to full recovery - I've gone from obese to a bit below borderline overweight in the past year and currently I'm eating normally with a few slip-ups here and there.

[Rhiannon]

simple answer: average girl, average weight, turned self-disciplined anorexic, turned "we're taking you to the hospital", turned "ok i'll eat a bit", turned into eating more and more and more, turned let's try to purge this shit. im happy to say i havn't purged in a while, and right now i'm trying to lose the weight a tad bit more healthy by sticking to vegetarian/vegan diet.. but it's still hard.. sometimes i find myself going 4days without food, then on day 5 i'll binge and it will last for 2 or 3 days before i get back on track again.. it's just a viscious cycle, that for me seems never ending... :/

[Chew]

simple answer: average girl, average weight, turned self-disciplined anorexic, turned "we're taking you to the hospital", turned "ok i'll eat a bit", turned into eating more and more and more, turned let's try to purge this shit. im happy to say i havn't purged in a while, and right now i'm trying to lose the weight a tad bit more healthy by sticking to vegetarian/vegan diet.. but it's still hard.. sometimes i find myself going 4days without food, then on day 5 i'll binge and it will last for 2 or 3 days before i get back on track again.. it's just a viscious cycle, that for me seems never ending... :/



Probably more EDNOS than BED but your story is not too far from mine except I succeed at becoming terribly bulimic and I went to hospital. x

Chew. x
Sorry For Being Me. x

[Jennie]

Anorexia.. I wish my story would actually stop people from trying to starve themselves as a diet, cause trust me when I say this; your body WILL catch up with you! Real bad!

Anyways...

Sometimes I even think I'm born a binge eater.. When I was about 9 my parents got divorced and fed me with sweets and all kinds of junk "to not feel guilty".. It turned into a bad habit, so when they noticed I started to gain and tried to buy and make healthier foods, I started comfort eating on my own. When I noticed I was fat too (it actually took a little while...) I got even more depressed and wanted to starve myself skinny. Then, after 1-2 years, my bad dieting turned really bad, and I got bulimia/anorexia. After about 3-4 years of being underweight (2 years maintaining a bmi of 15), and being hospitalized twice and been to a private clinic for eating disorders I decided to recover on my own.

Now I failed recovery and started bingeing... After a while with eating too much I've started to purge again too cause I have gotten overweight.. Not that it helps much! I hate this mess. And even though I never thought I would say it, I REALLY MISS being anorexic and too skinny. Rather that than a fat binge eater.

[brianwhitskey24]

hey it was nice story dear and happy that you recovered from it

[TenStone]

I'be always been eating disordered, as far as I remember, mostly on the overreating side (COE, BED, bulimic).
Thinking about, my BED developped when I was about 24. I have had the odd binges before, but I was mostly COE, with restriction phases.
At one point, I found myself eating heaps of food, hoarding it in my room.
I would bring lunch to work and then eat it by midmorning, along with packs of biscuits, chocolate bars, sandwiches from the bar. Buy some more food on my way home...I remember waiting from my train home and going into this big bar at the station.
Then I started dieting heavily, lost 100+ pounds, became bulimic/EDNOS and at one point I started to gain everything back and become basically a full-blown binger.
I sometimes purge, I can go on a few days of eating under 1,000 calories but I binge too often.

[soundofwhite]

i was always stick thin when i was a kid. until i was about 11 i would say. then i met a girl who became my best friend and we spent everyday together as we were neighbours, unfortunately she had a really fast metabolism and she ate and ate and ate and gained nothing, but as i was always with her i ate and ate and of course gained all the weight. then i started high school and was bullied for being fat and food was my comfort and coz i was so used to just eating i jsut did. im 23 now and still havnt beat it. i go through starving to bingeing, so im always the same weight, if i lose anything its pointless coz i will just binge and it will come back. its a never ending cycle.

[fatisnotcurvy]

When I came off a very strict diet at the same time my boyfriend left me. Bad timing.