wanting to go?

[sophiemay]

i want ana.
but when i think about it, it ruins lives, no matter how good it seems. theres always a catch - with anything. anything you want theres always flaws.

but if i have to recover, id rather go away and hit the nail on the head as they say. just get better, instead of this. all this pain for a measly pound. i feel awful, but if i was somewhere where i wasnt alone, where people undertood, where i didnt have so much family stress and stuff. i know id mess up my school work, but sometimes i just want to go.

im not bad enough.

<sorry for wasting space>

[rowyn]

i know how you feel, if you're still in high school your school will work with treatment centers to keep you up in school. If you're in college, you'll have to take leave, but if work hard and do get better it'd be worth it.

[sophiemay]

i know EXACTLY how you feel. i feel kinda pathetic for thinking it, but im not alone so its not too bad (: i mean, with family getting at you it makes it worse and is ruining what little relationships i ever had. i just want to either be ana or not, not stuck i this limbo ''/
caus then itll be over quickly and i can be happy with myself (well, as happy as i can be).
im not bad enough either.
x
good luck btw (: