I wish I wish I wish

[skylines]

that I could go back in time.

I would have kissed him before it was too late.
I would not have slashed my calories in half, "just to see".
I would have joined marching band, so my friends wouldn't have forgotten me. I would have joined drum pit, becuase I am good at drums.
I would have bought that guitar.
I would have been nicer to my brother when he was in argentina. maybe then he wouldn't have attempted suicide.
I would have run until my legs were on fire, instead of losing myself.
I would have laughed more, worried less, said "fuck you" to all the bitches that said I was fat, and lived.

what do you wish you could have changed?

[Vision Thing]

I wish that I'd been bothered to keep up contact with my best friend when we changed schools.
I wish I'd tried to learn a musical instrument before it was too late.
I wish I was still in a long distance relationship with him, now that it's half-half it's so diffucult to maintain.
I wish I had never fractured my spine and had to give up the sports I loved, only to sit around and get fat.
I wish I could have had a better family life, with parents who were sincere and sensible.
I wish I'd never had many of the friends I've had in high school, most of them fucked me over before I knew any better. I wish I wasn't so gullible.


I could go on forever, but I'll stop. I agree to this a thousand times though; "I would have laughed more, worried less, said "fuck you" to all the bitches that said I was fat, and lived."

[whereiswonderland44]

i liked being alive. i found happiness. i believed in love. i hadn't cheated. i liked myself. i'd never let him happen. i was 92 pounds. i could fuck the fuckers.

alice

[Jacklinger]

These are not wishes, these are regrets. There's a difference. A wish is a happy person's fantasy, a rain of vanilla on our castle, while we swim in money, and blast villians with super powers.

Regrets assualt our castles with screaming winds and earthquakes that toss and crumble our walls of ignorance. Towers of illusion fall and crash, usually with us inside them, believing we were safe. Then we either chose to live in our own rubble, like a vagrant, or try to rebuild something more humble and sturdier.

I regret pushing my friends away in years past when I was feeling most depressed, now they're married and gone.

I regret spending 3 years in music school before realizing that what I really wanted to do is have an easy job that paid well, rather than the other way around. But I was under the illusion that I was chasing a dream, borrowed from others. By the way, it's never too late to learn an instrument. I haven't played in years, and just bought a plastic ocarina and have started practicing it.

I regret not being nicer to girls in my teens. It wasn't because I didn't like them, I was too nervous to say what I really felt.

I regret spending so much time studying instead of socializing. But it was supposed to gaurantee me a good job that never went away. Too late to realize that, unlike jobs, good friends never go away, regardless of how bad the economy is. So now I have neither.

I wish I could eat donuts again. (diabetic)

[Cinderellinger]

I have no regrets except for the day that I stuck my fingers down my throat for the first time and the day I discovered that I didn't have to eat, that I didn't want to eat, to ever eat, the day I looked in the mirror...

I wish I would stop biting my nails. :p
I wish I could love my boyfriend as much as he loves me.
I wish I could eat anything I want without getting fat.
I wish I had more time to sleep.
I wish I had more time in general.
I wish I could have a real conversation with my dad.
I wish my mom wasn't so unstable.
I wish I didn't want to down that whole bag of painkillers sitting in my purse right now.
I wish I had more money.
I wish I could see myself as being beautiful.

[lovebexs]

i wish i was skinnier
i wish i'd never let myself like that guy
i wish i didn't drink so much alcohol
i wish my friends were less annoying
i wish they weren't all mad at me
i wish thanksgiving didn't exist
i wish you would notice the weight i've lost
i wish i'll get a callback on sunday
i wish when i wear my new vest i'll get a lot of compliments (cause that shit was expensive lol)
i wish i could eat pizza right now and it would have 0 cals
i wish i was going to that party tonight
i wish **** would CALL ME and ask me if i was going
i wish ashley would get fatter than me
i wish my doctor would just prescribe me adderall already (buying it from kids at school is getting annoying)
i wish i was famous
i wish i had a balenciaga bag.. or a chanel bag
i wish water tasted like chocolate
i wish i hadn't thrown away all the chocolate in my house

god. i could go on forever :[

[Jacklinger]

i wish i was skinnier
i wish you would notice the weight i've lost


Hi, ... I can't help but notice, that you're so thin. Have you lost weight? :)

[lovebexs]

haha why thank you jacklinger, i think i might have :]
that actually made me laugh out loud <3

[fallapart]

I wish I could feel more
I wish things would go my way
I wish i wasn't so lonely
I wish i'd never binged
I wish I could re-live parts of my life I have missed out on
I wish I could live forever(one day I will find a way to do it! :p )

[red&blueallie]

i wish i didn't see fat when i look in the mirror
i wish i said no when my head said to throw up
i wish i could take back calling my brother a bastard
i wish i am taller
i wish i wasn't so f***ing SHY

i wish i could just talk to that handsome guy i always see
i wish he would notice me :(