hell

[chubbyshay]

wanna know the worst part of b/p for me?
Not the feeling after pigging out so much that you feel bloated
Not the burn in your throat after you purge.
Not having to hide the fact that your brain is fucked up

the worst is never feeling good enough for yourself, and that I'm terrified of my senior pictures tomorrow because no matter how much weight I lose this year, when people look back in our yearbook 20 years from now, all they are going to remember is that one ugly fat girl and feel bad for her.

[heavybuthopeful]

I know exactly what you mean. My last school picture was 2 years ago and I know Iv lost weight since then but I still cant even look at the picture.

[GoldenBrown]

Hell is other people.

I NEVER allow anyone to take pictures of me. When I'll die and the few people that got to know me will also be dead, there will be no evidence of my existence. I am not sure whether it makes me sad or happy.

Try not to think about it too much, it is just your photo- YOU are not in it. It says absolutly nothing about who you are.
And who knows, maybe in 20 years from now you will look at it from a much better place and feel relieved (I don't mean "from a thinner place" because I know it is not better, not REALLY).
I believe that some people will look at that picture of yours and remember you as a friend they used to know. Remember that other people, mostly, don't see you the way you see yourself.

[Matthewww]

Also, many people don't just look at someone and immediately acknowledge someone's weight. I had plenty of friends who were overweight and I didn't even think of that when I saw them. Even the overweight kids who I didn't even talk to, I don't pick that out. Not everyone cares about weight when they see people you know.

[alm0ndmilk]

Also, many people don't just look at someone and immediately acknowledge someone's weight. I had plenty of friends who were overweight and I didn't even think of that when I saw them. Even the overweight kids who I didn't even talk to, I don't pick that out. Not everyone cares about weight when they see people you know.

This. This this this.

Sometimes we get so caught up in our own self-hate that we don't realize that quite frankly, no one else really cares what we look like that much. You might as well TRY and enjoy your life, regardless of what you weigh.

[kshea]

What is important is truly feeling good about who you are, and working towards improvement. It's not easy for people with ED's to achieve, but if you just feel sorry for yourself all the time, you won't accomplish anything. Take it from me, I've been there and I go back every once in a while.