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[Choquetteswife]

I am not sure how or where to ask this ? So I'm hoping here is ok. I'll try to sum it up quickly. I have never had anxiety before so I'm not sure if I am now. I have a ED and depression I have suffered with for many years. I just had my second son n they changed my anti depressant to Prozac over all I like it. I'm n a very unhealthy relationship where I have been physically abused many times n my life threatened I know the get away I'm not looking for that. My questions are can Prozac or meds cause anxiety and can abuse cause anxiety? It's very odd things for example if showering when I am drying off if I touch ANY part of the shower or shower curtain I freak I have to take another shower bc I feel gross n am shaking. Started about 4 months ago never ever had a prob like this I feel stupid saying it. I also am terrified something will happen to my kids if they sleep longer than normal I stand by them and watch them breath if I can not horrible thoughts and imagines appear n my head this just started as well. I'm sry for it being so long

[Koi]

Prozac does have anxiety listed as a possible side effect, though I haven't noticed it in my own personal experience. I'm only one person though.

and ABSOLUTELY - abuse of ANY KIND absolutely will cause anxiety. Of course it will. If you're living in fear, then you're certainly not relaxed. You should know that spousal abuse is much more prevelant among those married to active members of the military - you are not alone. There are resources for you, like AbusersAnon.com, or the Family Advocacy Program within the US military. Please take care of yourself <3

[polyonymous]

Abuse can definitely cause anxiety, and it can crop up at any point in life, seemingly hitting you out of nowhere.

Prozac and other drugs can also cause anxiety. It doesn't happen in everyone, but it does in some people, so definitely talk to your doctor about that. They may need to switch your medication just to be sure.

I am the same way about showers, but I've been that way my whole life. I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with that now. *hugs*

[Choquetteswife]

Thank u for the replies, I have made an apt to talk to them about switching my medicine. Its slowly becoming more and more problematic in my life more and more things are starting to cause anxiety attacks. I was talking to a therapist for a while but I quit and knew that it was not going to help b/c i was not being anywhere near honest, my husband wanted me to go to therapy to "fix" my "attitude problem" but I tried explaining to him that the therapist is also in the military and will tell his chain of command and kick him out of the military for abuse. He hasnt hurt me in a little bit, like little over a month...and he doesnt understand why I am afraid of him.. he says its in the past that isnt who he is anymore... really a month isnt time to heal in my head but maybe im just dragging it out.
Sorry for the rant and ongoing topic of abuse i just have no one else to talk to about it

[Koi]

Don't apologize, that's what this board is for - ranting and raving and generally getting it all off your chest.

I wish I could walk up to you and hug you - I feel for you so much, god I just really wish I could help you in a meaningful way, I know what it's like to be frightened and controlled in a relationship. I just got out of that bad relationship, and it's like, suddenly, I can breathe again. Always respect yourself - don't put him and his needs before you and yours. YOU need to be happy and sane, or what will your life mean? Sending love and hugs your way.

[Choquetteswife]

*hugz*
In my head i know i need to leave, i think about it but never happens for long. We have been apart away from each other for 2 years off and on before due to the military. I dont know why i went back b/c like u said when i was away i could breath, i did things i wanted to do, i focused on me and it was great, but in the end i always came back. even tho im younger (22) i feel like its my only option b/c whats the odds of someone wanting a relationship with someone who has 2 kids and depression and a ED on top of that! i feel like i should sometimes suck it up and b lucky i have anyone. then again i hate that im so pathetic i keep myself miserable just so im not alone..