EnoughIsEnough
07-12-2011, 12:24 AM
I have just weighed myself, and am at my highest weight ever. I am 0.4 bmi points into the obese category.
I want to rip my skin off.
I've been denying for a while that my bulimia is merging into BED, but I suppose I can't do that any more. I am primarily a binge eater now, and my body serves as proof of that.
I completely believe my scale, but at the same time am worried by the fact that I'm obese if I can comfortably fit into a UK size 10/occasionally a 12. Even taking into account the fact that I'm a bra size 32HH, it doesn't add up. In my mind, I must be failing to realise that my clothes are impossibly tight.
How the hell did this happen?
I need to get into work soon, but the thought of facing people makes me feel sick. Obviously, I was the same weight yesterday - but I didn't have a number to assign to myself.
I am setting myself a goal to lose 30lbs. This will place me out of the Overweight category. If anyone has any suggestions as to how to do this in a healthy way, which will not push me back into binging or purging, I'd be incredibly grateful.
I want to rip my skin off.
I've been denying for a while that my bulimia is merging into BED, but I suppose I can't do that any more. I am primarily a binge eater now, and my body serves as proof of that.
I completely believe my scale, but at the same time am worried by the fact that I'm obese if I can comfortably fit into a UK size 10/occasionally a 12. Even taking into account the fact that I'm a bra size 32HH, it doesn't add up. In my mind, I must be failing to realise that my clothes are impossibly tight.
How the hell did this happen?
I need to get into work soon, but the thought of facing people makes me feel sick. Obviously, I was the same weight yesterday - but I didn't have a number to assign to myself.
I am setting myself a goal to lose 30lbs. This will place me out of the Overweight category. If anyone has any suggestions as to how to do this in a healthy way, which will not push me back into binging or purging, I'd be incredibly grateful.