First poem about ED, whatcha think?

[corneee]

I am...

I am not an actress but I deserve a Golden Globe
because every day I wear a mask that stretches lobe to lobe.

I am not alone but feel I might as well be
because every day I have to hide the pain inside of me.

I am not a dreamer but every day I dream
that one day I'll wake up and thigs will not be as they seem.

I am not a runner but every day I try
because to me being fat means that I would rather die.

I try not to be an eater but every day I eat
even though losing weight is such a better treat.

I call myself a Christian but it often feels a lie
holding tight to Mia as she sucks my whole life dry.

I wish I wasn't selfish but everyday I take
causing my family suffering and all too much heartache.

I wish that I was happy like I think I used to be
crying to what feels like deaf ears of the Almighty.

I wish that I could know exactly why I am this way
What did I do to deserve this and how much debt must I repay?

I am a bulimic and every day I wake
Praying "Oh please Lord, take my soul for Heaven's sake!"



I just recently started writing just as a form of therapy to vent. Not sure if it's any good but it definitely feels good to get it out.

[bonesesdecorus]

I really like this.
Keep doing it. :)

[corneee]

Thanks! I really appreciate it :)

[beautiful-exception]

Your really good. Bonesesdecorus is right you should stick with this.

[clockworkorange]

this is so good! i love this! you should write more! and i think im gonna post my poem on here now. keep up the awesome poems! :)