rowyn
09-22-2009, 09:56 PM
So, i have a friend at college and we're from the same town, we used to be pro-ana together, and then we weren't we were both trying to get better...when we got to college, we both had trouble, then she turned around and decided she was 'going to do well'. although she is still restricting, she is doing well, trying to cut ed out completely (which includes me because that is our main bond)...so, i'm hurt and angry and i feel left behind...i should be happy for her, I AM, i want her to get better, heck I wish that for all of you...but...i feel like she is sick of me, which she is...but, i'm telling myself i don't need friends if i have ana (thats messed up). I feel like a total loner...and i feel pathetic that i have no friends, but when i'm doing what ana wants, i don't care...UGH! I don't know if my feelings towards her are valid or not...and i don't know if i'm a weirdo for really not having friends...i have in the past, but this is a new place and ana is back, so there is no time for friends...AH! am i the only loner??