HidingUnderCovers
03-30-2011, 05:08 AM
Hi, I'm new here but I've been reading through the forum for a while now and I guess it is just a relief to know I'm not completely alone and to a able to relate to all you guys. Anyway I guess I have had depression for a while but I was diagnosed with it about two years ago, I'm living and finishing high school from home so sleeping long hours and not showering for days is pretty easy to get away with. Lately though its like my brain refuses to think of the future, like I try to and nothing comes up its just all blank or blocked, maybe because whenever I have thought of the future it is well just painful and its not something I feel like I could get through, but now its like I've lost a sense of time, like in my head I'm living in Neverland you could say, there's no future, no past and I just feel nothing. As if life isn't real or something like that, I know sometimes I try to work myself up into a panic saying things like life is passing me by but that doesn't really work maybe for a few hours it will and I'll do an assignment or something to feel like I'm getting by but after that it's back into this stupor. There's only really one thing I'm dedicated to and thats learning to play the piano because then I can imagine playing to friends or family or someone and they would think I'm good at something. Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else feels like this sometimes? And if it passed or how they got out of it?