Willow
09-01-2009, 08:53 AM
This morning I woke up and everything suddenly seem to become clear. I know that sound so silly, but for years and years I have constantly been trying to find out who I am, and what my problem is.
I started having issues with food when I was 10, which then progressed on to fazes of binge eating and starving, as well as self harming until I was about 14, and then it became more severe and I would panic if I ate over 200 calories and was taking about 10 weight loss pills a day sometimes.
Now, at fifteen I am still restricting myself and occasionally binge eating, as well as chewing and spitting, but I now realize that I have a problem, and that problem is most probably EDNOS.
I know I am not a doctor and can't make a self diagnosis, but it makes so much more sense now that I've just spent the last two days researching EDNOS.
I can't tell you how happy I feel, not because I may have EDNOS of course, but because I now know theres a reason behind how I feel, and hopefully I can start getting out of this monster.
The idea of being able to eat without adding up everything in my head is just so exciting, and as ironic as it sounds, this is the best thing that has happened to me.
Today is a good day.
I started having issues with food when I was 10, which then progressed on to fazes of binge eating and starving, as well as self harming until I was about 14, and then it became more severe and I would panic if I ate over 200 calories and was taking about 10 weight loss pills a day sometimes.
Now, at fifteen I am still restricting myself and occasionally binge eating, as well as chewing and spitting, but I now realize that I have a problem, and that problem is most probably EDNOS.
I know I am not a doctor and can't make a self diagnosis, but it makes so much more sense now that I've just spent the last two days researching EDNOS.
I can't tell you how happy I feel, not because I may have EDNOS of course, but because I now know theres a reason behind how I feel, and hopefully I can start getting out of this monster.
The idea of being able to eat without adding up everything in my head is just so exciting, and as ironic as it sounds, this is the best thing that has happened to me.
Today is a good day.