How long since your last cut? [Archive]

No way out.

12-29-2010, 02:57 PM

Hi guys.

So I made this thread to see how long it's been since your last cut, I'm sure the title gives it away.

On January 3rd, it'll be 2 months for me, I'm really happy, and proud of myself.
Although for the past few weeks, I have been getting thoughts, such as: '1 cut won't hurt'
But I know, that one will lead to another. . . And I seriosuly DO NOT want to cut, I know I have it in me to go longer than 2 months!
And this is being done through self-recovary.

I have read posts, about how many have gone years without cutting, I hope I can be one of those such people. I want to have the willpower to stop! I've tried self-recovary many times, which have always failed me, but now I have to prove to myself, that I don't need to cut to cope, I can do this! I WILL DO THIS!
Okay, this has gone a bit off topic..

So, how long has it been since your last cut?

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something-blue

12-29-2010, 03:02 PM

two weeks :)

Boney M

12-29-2010, 03:13 PM

15 years..

something-blue

12-29-2010, 03:25 PM

15 years..

go you!!!!
and you too, IN It To WIN It

Fallenflower

12-29-2010, 04:05 PM

Three days ago. Although my signature does says that already.

No way out.

12-29-2010, 06:57 PM

15 years..

OMG! That is AWESOME! That's like motivation! If you can go up to 15 years.. What's stopping me?
Wow!

TheOutsider

12-29-2010, 09:31 PM

Boney M - Thats amazing, true inspiration

For me, almost four years now :D

lazuliblue

12-30-2010, 11:15 AM

Two days - but I really mustn't do any more because I'm going into hospital for an operation at the end of january and I really don't want my family finding out when I'm laying there in a hosptial bed with my legs not covered by sheets!

Xgx

12-30-2010, 12:30 PM

~a week ago (Christmas Eve)..... and I reeaally regret that (especially ONE of those (you know) because it's the deepest ONE yet and the *view* isn't good.

TRIGGERING ---> All that strange *meat* is staring at me between two of... the... *shores* of skin....

Yeah. (Out of topic--->) And it's the only reason I fought against going to endocrinologist this week : I'd have NO discretion, since those freakin' doctors won't speak to me - they ONLY speak to my mother ALL THE TIME (mostly because she's a nurse, I guess ?!)

No way out.

12-30-2010, 01:45 PM

We can all do it! I'm getting pretty bad urges, but I have to overcome them!
The urges get stronger everyday, I feel like i'm going to have one of those impulse moment and just reach for the blades.
I could chuck them away, but, I'll feel unsafe without them, so I think I'll keep 'em!

Whether it be a week or 2 days, I think that's still progress, we're all trying! :)
And hats off to those who have gone years!

Boy_cano

12-30-2010, 04:43 PM

It's been a while, 3 months. i think about it almost every day.

I'm sitting with a blade right now..

No way out.

12-30-2010, 07:50 PM

It's been a while, 3 months. i think about it almost every day.

I'm sitting with a blade right now..

I really do hope you haven't cut. I know you can do this, go longer than 3 months..

But I dunno, is it kinda like a recovary method-ish thing? Cause I would also get my blade out and just look at it, and touch it, but not cut?

I am having the most strongest urge..
But take it one day at a time, don't overwhlem yourself by thinking 'whole life without cutting'.. Just take it one day at a time.

rachellisa

12-30-2010, 08:17 PM

half an hour ago.

beautifullypossessed

12-31-2010, 04:39 AM

For me it was about twenty minutes ago.
FML.

Ysabelle

12-31-2010, 11:38 AM

Its been about a month. I have SI in other ways but I haven't cut in awhile.

Formonitrile

12-31-2010, 12:30 PM

1 year-ish for me.
It's been a struggle, especially recently.
Every night I fight the urge to cut but every morning I wake up so glad that I didn't, it gives me the strength to go on.

No way out.

12-31-2010, 07:23 PM

It's been a struggle, especially recently.
Every night I fight the urge to cut but every morning I wake up so glad that I didn't, it gives me the strength to go on.

That is exactly how I feel... Every night, fighting the urges. But mornings are great, cause I know, I resisted!
1year, great btw :)

But I think I sorta am SH-ing in other methods.. I've cut my lip so much (through biting) and then burning it (with hot piping tea), and basically torturing it, by strestching it, biting what's left, and it just burns all day.. non stop. It's gone red and all swolen-ish, I think I took lip-biting too far...
I'm telling myself that t's still no SH though.

thinmiint

01-01-2011, 10:21 AM

About 15 seconds ago...all night as well, part of yesterday, earlier the previous day

Before that, about two months

wntutowntme

01-01-2011, 11:00 AM

I think its been about 2 1/2 weeks for me... I just havent felt the need to - but I had the sudden urge to about 3 minutes ago when I heard a song that is triggering for me... hmm..

iWrite

01-01-2011, 06:09 PM

I think my last cuts were about 5 days ago,but the urges are there strongly.

Maxhatter

01-03-2011, 10:55 AM

iWrite

01-03-2011, 03:12 PM

No way out.

01-03-2011, 07:22 PM

I think I last cut week before last...but I burned myself today...anyone else do that? (I mean that in a curious way as whenever self harm comes up in a conversation it's usually cutting and I was just wondering)

Oh no, I know burning comes up. There are other methods. Like I used to take a number of tablets [painkillers] to give me a massive headache, just so I can stop thinking, I usually end up with headache, sleep, wake up, headache. Or you bite yourself, sctratch yourself, punch,bang, etc.

moon_light

01-03-2011, 08:40 PM

A little under two months (: And that embodies all SI, which I'm really, really proud about. I've been trying so, so hard recently not to fall back into an unhealthy life.

machiavelliandandelion

01-03-2011, 10:13 PM

i was going to say a few weeks, until i remembered the gnarly scabs on my ankle from burning myself while drunk less than a week ago. sometimes i forget burning counts...

UsedRomance

01-05-2011, 04:17 AM

My last time was the 21st December, so just over 3 weeks ago.

The longest I've ever gone was 6 months. I'm hoping to beat that.

Thinandbones

01-05-2011, 03:36 PM

My last time was around a week ago, it's really hard for me to believe. I didn't cut because 1) I didn't have enough time??? WTF and 2) I've been texting my crush Jack for 8 hours at a time and it makes me uber happy :)

rxa

01-06-2011, 09:47 PM

It's been 3 and a half years since I last cut.. The thing that helped me the most to go this far is a group of awesome friends that are truly understanding and caring, also rewarding yourself at certain points.. like at a month without cutting I went out and had an awesome day with my friends at the beach had a barbercue.. then at the year mark I went on a mini vacation to get out and really enjoy life, and have been doing something special around the year mark lol kind of like anniversary to a new way of relieving stress, and that in itsself is a great stress relief.

vixie

01-06-2011, 10:58 PM

its been 17 days since the last time i cut. I can feel a relapse coming. Cause my ex is now going back out with my friend who i have recently become pretty close with. and i say im not jealous, and that im happy for them but its lies /:
i shouldnt be jealous. I stopped dating him on the 28th of october. i never got over him tho.
Plus, My ex guy boy friend sex thing and i stopped talking, i havent talked to him since the 26th.. which depresses me.
and then on top of that, my friend andrew tried setting me up with this cute girl savannah. We texted for a day but now she wont even reply to me /:
its all like 'greeeattt. I guess she thinks im weird and ugly.' as if my self esteem wasnt low enough...
Fuck. i feel so depressed.
i guess no guy or girl wants me or ever will/: and usually i wouldnt care about that, but it all jsut came at me at once and i feel very alone.

bobbypinthin

01-09-2011, 10:16 AM

5 days..? Maybe 4.

lazuliblue

01-10-2011, 12:11 PM

1 week and 2 days...apparently...I checked my last post on this thread!

I'm really proud that I haven't given into the urges. The old marks are fading, hopefully when I go into hospital for my operation at the end of january they will almost be gone, and my parents won't have to find out what I have been doing.

I also keep reminding myself of how much I love wearing dresses and shorts in the summer. When I was younger I was always too self conscious to wear them, but for the past couple of years I have been able to enjoy wearing pretty dresses and stuff. I don't want to not be able to this summer because my legs are covered in cuts, so I'm using that as motivation.

outremangeur

01-18-2011, 10:22 PM

two weeks.
I honestly think that the only reason i've lasted so long without cutting is that I don't have any razors, and i dont want to ruin my mom's shaving razor or kitchen knives.

vphoenix

01-19-2011, 02:00 AM

I think I last cut week before last...but I burned myself today...anyone else do that? (I mean that in a curious way as whenever self harm comes up in a conversation it's usually cutting and I was just wondering)

burning is my go-to form of SI. I haven't cut in a couple years, but I burned again just a few weeks ago :S

on the wagon off the wagon I guess. one of these days maybe I'll stop completely

lory

01-19-2011, 01:30 PM

i went 2 months without cutting, then i cut 3 days ago and i have every day since. do NOT give up like i did, it is not worth it and you can do it!! <3

spammychic

01-19-2011, 08:14 PM

I've been self-harm free for a little over a year now. It feels great. But tons of nasty scars.

mustbethin61394

01-20-2011, 07:11 PM

apple(a)day

01-29-2011, 08:08 PM

Wow uuhhhhmm.. my last cut was my junior year in high school. I'm a college freshmen now. It was either spring break or summer and my friends and I had just gotten back from my family's river house. My friends went home and I was home alone because my family was still at river. I hadn't cut in probably a year and hadn't planned on it but I got drunk alone off of beer ( ewww!!liquor soo much better; if only I'd known then) And I had thrown away my little yellow knife I had used in middle school so I found a small compact mirror, broke it into shards and had a pretty violent last cut session. They were longer than they used to and just really angry and violent.

My excuses were always horrible.. when my closest friend asked what happened to my leg, I said I scraped it on the pier at the river.. which was completely ridiculous because cuts were horizontal and they were with me whole time at the river.. but she believed me nonetheless

That was my one year cut relapse and my last cut to date.. :)

<3 MarshA

Scully24

01-30-2011, 12:46 AM

Ummm.... Actually my last cut was about an hour and a half ago... I have recently relapsed :( I made it soooo long. 3 years with no cutting and then slipped about a week ago and have been going at it pretty badly.

No way out.

01-30-2011, 10:22 AM

Wow some of these are really great.
i have been "cut free" for about a month now but I have exams.
I am pretty sure I am failing about everything right now (another way ED and SI screwed up my life)
But now all I want to do is cut.
I think Im going to right now actually...:(

I'm sorry, i'm really late at replying, I had exams too.
I had the exact same problem, during exams, I was so stressed, and I thought I needed to cut; every night, I thought, out of impulse, I'd jump outta bed and cut, but I managed to refrain. Exams is the time where my ED started, and school work made me turn to SI. I hope you haven't cut :( Try to maintain, and I'm sure you'll be proud of yourself, I know I was.

I hope one day we can all break out of this, were all worknig so hard.

I've read most people have had relapses, that tends to happen, I've had it too..
I feel another one coming, but, the thing is, I'm scared to hold that blade, in fear that I'll cut to deep I'd need stitches, I've literally been fantisizing about it, and I NEED it! I think I'm going to cut after my Childline meeting, I've been working so hard not to SI, and because of that meeting, I've been heavily binging and not purging! I'm so scared, but I really hope I get it, and I think after that meeting, I just might cut, cause all I want is for that to be over, so I can "Be myself" again.

littleredbutton

01-30-2011, 02:12 PM

I cut myself last night. Really deep and ugly. I was in so much pain from being neglected and abused.... I cant handle it..

Scully24

01-30-2011, 03:09 PM

I cut myself last night. Really deep and ugly. I was in so much pain from being neglected and abused.... I cant handle it..

I am really sorry to hear that :( You are strong, you can get through this, I believe in you!!

Sending love and warm hugs your way,

xoxo Scully

Spongebob.Skinny.Pants

01-30-2011, 03:44 PM

last sunday i believe. but im so triggered, its unbelievable.

GoreJess

01-31-2011, 07:07 PM

One day prior to my hospitalization and thus being put on MH Commitment and being threatened with revocation if I SIB.

apple(a)day

02-01-2011, 03:39 PM

Damn I had forgotten about burning... so technically its hasn't been a year sort of.

When I was drunk with my friends this summer, I begged my guy friend to burn me with his cigarette. At first he said no but then he got totally wasted and eventually did it in the middle of the street haha..

so does it count when someone else does it for you.. I was about to do it myself but he took it away from me. (that was before he got too drunk)

It's sooo funny how none of my friends know though, even though they've casually seen my scars on my arms and legs in addition to being there for that burn.

Scully24

02-01-2011, 06:22 PM

ummm...... as of recent, last night... badly. It has not stopped bleeding yet, amongst various other ones from last night, but that one is the worst I think I have ever done.

No way out.

02-03-2011, 04:02 PM

I cut myself last night. Really deep and ugly. I was in so much pain from being neglected and abused.... I cant handle it..

Just know that I and every other member is always here for you. If you even ned to talk, or want advice, then I'm always here, you can PM! If you want to vent, anything!
Please please try to approach this problem, to help yourself :(

xx

UsedRomance

02-11-2011, 02:01 PM

My last time was the 21st December, so just over 3 weeks ago.

The longest I've ever gone was 6 months. I'm hoping to beat that.

I don't think I've cut since I wrote this- I got really ill so cutting was the last thing on my mind and then I moved and haven't cut since.

So about 7 weeks now. Although I've been feeling really triggered to lately. The only thing stopping me is that I'm on my school placement at the moment.

No way out.

02-11-2011, 03:01 PM

I cut :(
And needed to go hospital too!
But i'm back on on Monday! Definitely!
I'll just cut till Sunday, and back on the recovary wagon.

littlebellalost

02-11-2011, 06:19 PM

I was two and a half months clean. Then the guy who I thought was the love of my life broke up with me. I was strong and didn't cut. Then he stopped talking to me completely and told one of my friends that he fucking hates me right now. That night, I cut into my left breast, over my heart, and my left thigh. In my thigh I had carved "I love you and I am sorry Alex." Alex is my latest ex. I kept repeating to myself it was his fault, but I knew and know that it was mine. I haven't done it in a week and I hope to stay strong. I do not know how long I will last with this break up on two weeks into my past...

something-blue

02-12-2011, 11:54 AM

2 weeks and 2 days :)

*nods*

dawn_

02-17-2011, 12:08 PM

Almost 3 years.

wh1testar

02-21-2011, 09:02 AM

2 days. :( It has been extremely tough lately.

poppin

02-26-2011, 09:09 AM

Yesterday, but I'm really determined not to today :)

Ras

02-26-2011, 05:19 PM

12 days. Yay!!

barely_there

02-27-2011, 10:45 PM

Almost a month. I've been behaving.

1ndonly

02-28-2011, 02:42 AM

Just got a paper cut a few minutes ago. It's really irritating. I don't know how some of you can go so long without even the slightest cut.

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me-plainandsimple

02-28-2011, 09:27 AM

it'll be two weeks tonight since the last time i did it and that's mainly because of a boy, which i dislike admitting but it's true.
i'd feel guilty still doing it when he makes me happy

Happy

02-28-2011, 11:27 AM

About 3 weeks.
I promised.
And it's not easy.

No way out.

02-28-2011, 12:35 PM

It's been 2 days! I panicked when the lady said I needed stitches or a possible skin grafting. Later, thank God, the other doctor said butterfly plasters would work. Those are amazing.
Okay, I have to focus on not doing this anymore, so as of March 1st, I will try to refrain.

alp12ha

03-14-2011, 01:10 AM

Almost one week ago my last cut.

soubi

03-14-2011, 09:17 PM

It had bee about three years but in January I had t put my cat to sleep 6 days before my birthday... now its been about 1 week and I think about it every day

Lanie

03-18-2011, 10:28 AM

About 5 days. And I'm probably going to go home and do it again. Once a week seems to be my new thing. I don't know why.

sic.transit.gloria

03-21-2011, 07:03 PM

4 months.
well, it should have been 1 year and 4 months (that's when i promised to my boyfriend i'd stop if he would stop), but it was a dramatic pre-holiday season in my house, thanks to my polar-opposite parents.
but i've been good without cutting since then, and i hope to keep it that way :]

Dotti

03-21-2011, 07:07 PM

I use to be a cuter and it's been six years since I don't ...look if it's not one thing it's another I stopes cutting to start meth left meth to drink then whent back to meth and now I'm obese and finding my new obsession take it day bye day

Barely_Short

03-22-2011, 02:47 AM

About a week and half and Im starting to really want to cut again. Ill probably make it to two weeks and then crack.

EDIT: I cracked :/

AliceTheNarwhal

03-27-2011, 12:34 PM

Almost 3 weeks but I'm starting to get kind of desperate...

Kikixx

03-29-2011, 11:29 PM

A week give or take. Sadly it looks like I'm about to cut again sometime today I just don't have the strength to say no. Its always the last time.

TinyTabby

03-30-2011, 03:50 AM

I went a couple weeks without but I did today. not nearly as bad as I was doing before, though. I'm concerned that it'll get to that level again.

Lily'sNotAlive

03-30-2011, 08:22 PM

Last night.

UpsAndDowns

03-31-2011, 05:59 PM

I'd been pretty good for awhile, several months actually. I typically scratch this little place on my wrist but I've had this nearly overwhelming desire to head for the razor blades lately. Don't know why. It's like there's this little chant in my head going, "Cut, cut, cut, cut, cut...."

anabarbie

04-02-2011, 02:49 AM

It was 2 years until 3 days ago....ahh well i'll stop again just had a hard day :L

degs

04-05-2011, 03:09 PM

SI'd for ten years until last November. Usually cutting and burning; used to hit my head and arms off walls when I was a kid too. Although I've stopped actually marking my skin, the impulse to snap fingers and break other bones is unreal sometimes.

LollipopTrees

04-05-2011, 10:02 PM

Almost a month [:
I was SO tempted today. But I didn't do it!
I just sat there, and looked at my scars, and I was strong enough to stop myself.

I am still trying to avoid the urge.
I had a fight with my friend.. then came home and got harsh words from the 'rent..
Still upset about some things.. but I can do it.

Happy

04-07-2011, 01:34 AM

Only two days here, but my mood lifted the day after I last cut, so I'm pretty sure I can stay away from cutting for a few weeks at least. When my mood lifts, I don't feel the need anymore until it drops again.

skinnyjenny

04-07-2011, 03:11 PM

about 45 minutes. i am disappointed that i didn't do more.

degs

04-07-2011, 03:55 PM

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No way out.

04-07-2011, 04:13 PM

Almost a month [:
I was SO tempted today. But I didn't do it!
I just sat there, and looked at my scars, and I was strong enough to stop myself.

I do that too, and it works for me aswell. I hate the scars, so I avoid trying to make more.
I suggest you guys give it a try, and see if it works for you guys too.