I'm going to cry if i can't stop

[mustbethin61394]

I never really thought of myself have BED but i realize that I do.
For a long time I have been diagnosed as ednos or bulimia but never BED.
I can't understand why I do this but I have stopped purging but now i just binge.
I eat when i'm not hungry I eat to just eat. I can't understand this. I don't want to eat but I have to.
I can't restrict anymore. It's just impossible. Sorry to rant I just need to let somebody know...This is crazy.

[L i l i u m]

I just went through this, and literally just sort of got a hold on it(i occasionally binge but way less then before). I was anorexic and then all of a sudden i got BED. i ate and every time i did eat it triggered a binge. I know how difficult it can be and if you need anyone to talk you can p.m me.

[boopers]

I'm totally in the same issue Ive been where you are,,Ive done it all,, from BED to bulimia(most often) and Ive start ever some ana tendency for the past 17 years,,having BED is not something to be ashamed of, it still a eating disorder,, you still have all the ED thinking and voice.. your stil sick and there is help out there. just have to take the first step and ask.

for me when I'm in what i call a BED phase I'm usually very stress,anxious or emotional things going on in my life,,,,I turn to BED to stuff all the feeling and emtions down so i dont have to deal with them..if Comfort for me for just even 5 min after I done, I find when Im in a depression I tend to binge more also,,so you not alone

but I'm here anytime is you want to talk pm me anytime

[bittergreen]

I've also been through the exact same thing; once I started bingeing without purging, I ended up weighing over double what I did at my lowest weight -- which wasn't healthy at 57 lbs, but I ended up just under 140. :\ I've done that for months on end... just sit at home and eat, fall asleep when I'm too full to eat anymore, and start all over again when I wake up. I've broken that cycle somewhat now (it was at its worst about two years ago), and lost some of that weight (but still have a ways to go), yet I still fall into that pattern for a few weeks or even a month sometimes, and I end up feeling so disgusting. It first started during a period of really bad depression, and I just slowly gave up caring if I purged after I binged; it seemed like too much bother because I didn't feel like doing anything besides eating. I hate that every time I'm feeling really depressed even now, that seems to be my pattern; I'm much better at restricting or limiting my binges and then purging everything when I'm not as depressed...

But yeah, as you can tell by the responses in this thread, you're definitely not alone. *hugs*

[mustbethin61394]

Thank you guys so much!
It means alot.
I normally don't get a ton of support from this website which is why I have been debating on getting off.
But thank you so much.
If you ever want to talk pm me and i will give you my email and phone number.