Food = Pain (my method)

[Jack112]

Hi everyone.
I'm a guy and i know this forum is mostly ruled by girls lol but im here :)
No one knows what i do as of yet, i hope it stays that way, but i will tell you because this is anonymous.
Basically i self harm to stop eating. (wtf is he on about?) lol

What i do is when i eat something i cut myself so every time i come to eat it reminds me of pain and i dont want to do that to me again so therefore dont eat.
Does anyone else do something along these lines or just me?

I feel really bad because my girlfriends had an eating disorder and i feel i am letting her down. it hurts me inside. how can she come to me for help when im only falling into the same things she did? :(
not feeling great at the moment anyway hit me up with your comments.

[Automatic]

That was going to be my method, but I use to cut before..
If my mom found out that I was cutting myself again ugh.
I will not go through dumb stuff like I did before /:


I know you can hide it and stuff, but it can be a little hard sometimes.
Oh well..

If you're going to cut, I'd advise you not to cut deep.. AT ALL.
It'll scar and it'll scar for a looong, long time.
I still have a scar from 2 years ago and it's still pretty dark.
D:

But please don't cut. It's horrible.

[nathrakh]

Im a bit mia. But i cut myself after most purges aswell. I tell myself. If i want to eat like a pig, i deserve to bleed like one. Unlike many people who self harm i dont self harm for the pain tho. I harm myself because i like seeying blood flow from my body.

And like automatic said, its better not to cut too deep indeed. I didnt cut too deep either but still my entire arms are covered in scars and i cant wear normal t shirts without getting looks.

[zci]

I am not the same as you, but I cut, especially when I am really really desperate, emo overload, rage, really sad, like having cried a whole night...I also want to see my own blood, before I wont stop, and I also have to go around in longsleeves...that triggers all these emotions again...I must say, I do not cut very often, but when I do, I do, so it is good to at least try to remember not to cut deep, thx...

[Jack112]

Thank you for the replys. i generally dont cut too deep anyway because i know it can leave pretty bad scars and i dont want to be caught. usually i keep the cutting at the top of my thigh because thats generally a place no one see's.

[nathrakh]

i usually cutted my arms since they are the most easy to reach when im going emo,ragemode. I dont feel like undressing. I just get angry at myself and let the knife to the talking :P

[amywarren]

I do it to see my blood also. Idk why but seeing my blood helps me relax.
I haven't tried cutting if I wanted to eat or anything. I could try it though

[Static]

Hey, I'm a guy too and that's what I did a lot when I was younger... on and off, I think cigarette burns were one of the most effective ways of losing weight for me. Sucks, because I really want to do it again but I don't want to explain the burns to my gf.

[Vision Thing]

If i want to eat like a pig, i deserve to bleed like one.

I feel like this is going to become my new mantra....

I don't physically self harm, but any time I binge I go straight to the mirror and pinch every flabby part of my body in front of myself, just so I know that that's what I'm going to gain.

[angelwingzz]

Hi :)..I did something on the same lines. But I would do it after I ate and spiral into a crazed depressional storm. But I got tattoos to cover the scars! And tried to substitute other things like drinking to stop! But that wasn't good either the cals in alcohol are bananas. I just do something in public like walk or something to distract me from the urge to cut. Maybe u could do something like that?

[jaz3]

I used to cut and stick pins in my finger tips when i was younger through the harder times but haven't done it in yrs. I have a long term partner and find it very difficult because i have alot of pain and anxiety lately that sometimes i want to cut or something to release my inner pain. I found hitting my hip bone over again till it leaves a bruise is quite effective. Then i just say that i ran into something (im naturally a clumsy person). But this cant be done too many times, he did get suspicious last time. I need to find another way, go for a run or join a boxing class lol

[GodsGirlManda]

I do this too. Hurt myself when I eat. Not in order to make myself not eat, but just because I feel so awful when I do eat that I need to be punished.

[Priscilla]

Hey (:
I started on the same lines
but my sister noticed cuts on my arms
So i moved to my legs
damn her for seeing those too.
Now the scars won't really go away
You're right not to cut too deep
The ones on my legs are horrid
gah
reading this post is making me itch for the knife
[i just binged and someones in my bathroom so i'm all antsy at the moment]
))))):

[ScorpioKitten]

Hmm I don't think that would work for me, since I'm a cutter and I cut for relief of emotional pain. So basically my mind sees cutting as a positive thing rather than a negative one. It might make me actually want food if I associated it with cutting...

[KirbyLyneth]

I've never felt the neeed to cut, but i did give myself bruises by repeatedly hitting the top of my thigh, its out of the way and only i know what i did.

x x