I cut today for the first time in years.

[raven37]

I can tell i'm getting worse. I relapsed with cutting again. :(

[Lichen]

You slipped, you didn't relapse. In the 4-5 years since I quit self-harming, I slipped twice. It won't become a pattern unless you allow it. Fortunately, you're mindful and guilty which sounds good from a recovery standpoint. And because you've isolated your cutting, you're more aware of emotional triggers and should be better able to avoid giving in to the next urge.

I'm sorry you're not comfortable discussing the how or why of it here, but give yourself some credit. Cutting is a powerful coping mechanism, but you resisted so long. You can do it again, promise.