I don't recognize myself anymore.

[citrous]

I hate my body to an unmeasurable amount.... I took a shower yesterday, and scrubbed it all clean, and I had to touch all the fat and weirdness... then I sat on the toilet for about ten minutes, and just cried. Pinched my thighs and sobbed over my stomach and ran my hands over my arms, and felt the bone that is next to the glob of fat.... Stood up and looked in the mirror... I don't even recognize myself anymore. I hate this sad excuse for a body that I am stuck in, fat and covered in scars. Made some coffee just now, and caught my reflection in the microwave. Horrible. Who is that? Who is it that I see when I look in the mirror? I don't even know... I had a bagel a little while ago. 250 calories. The soy milk in this coffee is like 25 calories. It's hot so I'm just wearing a t-shirt, but that means I have to stare at these arms.... I'm 4 foot 11 inches, and this morning I was 73 pounds. I just want to lose weight until I'm skinny again, I want to be 67 pounds again! Oh, why did I eat that bagel...

[Jacklinger]

You are not your body. You just live there. It needs things.

What you're feeling, is your ED. But it's not you, it wants to be you, it wants you to forget the real you, and convince you that it is you. But that's not true. Maybe you're having trouble recognizing yourself because the real you made an appearance and you've not seen her in a while.

[Mianis]

just breath <3

remember recovery is for a healthier AND happier you..
besides, you are still very underweight + skinny...

don't let the ED control you, take back your life xX