Help :( Really freaking out. (possibly triggering)

[wingspan]

Hey everyone.. Umm.. so I'm reallllyy having a flip out right now. I just cut and I still feel upset and uneasy and my head has been spinning for hours and I feel like I'm not on the ground and my heart is racing and I still feel like I'm about to have a panic attack and I don't know what to do, please help.

My cut is deep enough to see a layer of my skin but its not particularly long, just wide. But why am I still freaking out? I'm really scared. I'm really scaring myself lately, i keep imagining stabbing a big knife through my hand and just letting it bleed.

I don't know whats going on and I feel like i dont know where I am or what I'm seeing even though I do know those things.. I just need help right now please.

[fwyzing]

Try to sleep. you can't hurt yourself in your sleep and it might help you feel grounded once you wake up, and maybe take a friend on a walk with you, because going alone might be bad depending on where you are...

watch an exciting movie! go to a mall. do something really distracting

I think I know how you feel, and hopefully this helped and wasn't too late :( please be ok?

[wingspan]

Try to sleep. you can't hurt yourself in your sleep and it might help you feel grounded once you wake up, and maybe take a friend on a walk with you, because going alone might be bad depending on where you are...

watch an exciting movie! go to a mall. do something really distracting

I think I know how you feel, and hopefully this helped and wasn't too late :( please be ok?

Thank you for replying. I'm trying to hold it together. I have homework that a small part of my mind keeps telling me to work on, but its really hard to focus when I'm feeling this way. I just want to cut cut cut cut cut cut until I just cant cut anymore... If I can't manage to do this paper right now I'll read something or try and sleep. I just dunno, I wish I wasnt feeling this.. I wish I didnt feel like I have to plunge a knife in me to feel better. I wanna apologize to this forum for how stupid and dramatic this is, I just don't have anywhere to turn to.

[fwyzing]

It's what we're here for dear, no need to apologize surely everyone here would agree.

Plus side: if you do your homework and your paper, you can kick the badness in the face and have sometime healthy to feel accomplished about! and who knows? Once you get started you could get distracted enough to eventually start to cheer up

[OzJenj]

Aw you poor thing! I hope you're feeling a little better by now. I can imagine how horrible you must be feeling.

[wingspan]

Last night was awful.. I do feel a bit more grounded today. Struggling to keep my thoughts away this morning :/ But its a new day and I can hope it'll be a bit better. Thank you both, I didn't have anyone/anything to turn to and you helped a lot

[Cara]

Hey, I know it's over now, but I thought it might be good to share some distraction ideas. There is a REALLY AWESOME list of alternatives to cutting here: To view links or images in this forum your post count must be 1 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. df

Personally, I tend to try to journal, draw, or run usually. Sometimes I fold paper cranes and I'm thinking of trying to distract myself with memorizing my french verbs - a really repetitive, simple task that both keeps my hands and head a bit busy. Things like just going outside and looking up at the sky can help because it's a change of place and perspective. Trying to imagine the future and goals and dreams might help it you're feeling down… but when I feel kind of Crazy and Spiny - though it may be a very different type of Wild feeling than yours - I (admittedly don't have a good track record of not hurting myself, but…) try to do Deep Breathing stuff. Like relaxation techniques.

Hope you are feeling a bit better now. :) Stay safe.

[wingspan]

Wow thank you!! Thats a nice big list :) I also draw and I find that reading helps a lot if you find a nice, quiet, secluded corner or comfortable spot its a lot easier to bury yourself in a characters life in a book. I don't have a good track record either haha I usually give in and don't even try to do something else.. Sometimes I try to keep my panic attacks away by breathing and telling myself that things are ok and normal. Sometimes it works.. other times not so much.. : /

Anyway, thank u!!