Afraid i might loose my boyfriend :(

[deadinside]

Ok, where to start?
i suffer from anorexia (but lately have done some progress in my recovering, but thats not importent) and i also suffer from severe anxiety. ive been together with my boyfriend 3½ years now and tomorrow is his birthday. Im that kind of girl that always wants everything perfect so tomorrow ive planned a nice dinner at a resturant, breakfast in bed, massage and so furth so good. The thing is that this week i got one of my, what a call "freak week". I cant really do anything, just starring, sometimes cry or just scream because of the pain the axiety causes. Well, i really love my boyfriend, so so much but i think his tired of me(who wouldent be?) and it would be a tragedy for me if he left me, altough a would understand. How is it possible to have a steady relationship when a disease is eating you up inside? How do you do?

[paige]

If he really loves you unconditionally he would understand that anxiety/anorexia/depression aren't your fault. You can't control them. If he loved you he'd try to help you

[bonexfied]

I agree with Paige. And, like you, I have the same problem. I've been with my boyfriend for a little over a year. I'm a super perfectionist, and have 'freak weeks' as well where I will literally cry for hours, un-end, for absolutely no reason at all.

My boyfriend aggravates the hell out of me. I feel like sometimes he doesn't give one sh**. But truly, he does. If you've been with your boyfriend for this long, I'm sure the two of you have an incredible bond. Just try explaining to him how you're feeling, and how you want to be there for him, just like you want him to be there for you. He should understand. Sometimes our other halves have a better grip on our situation than we think. :)

Hope it works out!

[deadinside]

thanks, youre so sweet :) I hope your right!