No Support During Mealtime

[FallingSlowly]

I can't stand it when my mom wants to b**s**t and b**s**t and b**s**t during mealtimes so that she can prolong the time before we actually eat. But of course if I get fed up and decide that I don't feel like waiting for her anymore and that I don't want to eat, she gets mad and yells at me and makes me feel bad about restricting. She likes to rub it in my face about how " at this point in recovery I should be able to eat meals on my own" and make me feel like a failure if I can't. Unfortunately no one else seems to care enough to actually want to have meals with me, but whenever I actually have them with my mom I feel worse. I don't know what to do. Its enough to make me just want to say "F- it!"

[elyse]

I'm sorry, I wish I knew what to say, but I guess... hugs. I have a lot of frustration with my mom too, not really the same, but I understand the sentiment. Sometimes they are just... so far from being helpful. :( But you're not a failure. You're working hard at this, you should be proud of yourself and screw everyone else's timetables about where you "should" be. <3