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[KnuffleBunny]

Hi. This is new for me. When I first started B/P there really was no online community. In 10 years, I've gone through cycles of being really dependent on my disorder to living a normal and healthy lifestyle. It's been almost 2 years since my last episode, but lately everything's been coming back. The one big change is that doing this was a lot easier when I was in high school and college. Now I'm married and have a child so there's always someone around me. Luckily my husband doesn't know I've ever had issues with eating so he's not exactly on the look-out for it. I try to hide it by not eating all day, then when he comes home I eat dinner and then get rid of it.

So, is there anyone else here who is married or lives with their partner and hides it from their significant other?

[zci]

Hi KnuffleBunny,
I am not married, nor do I live with someone, so, in a way I am free to do whatever. But I can relate about the length of time, I have been dealing with BP since 9 years and it gives me some security, but the wrong one...after purging I mostly lose energy and just feel like crap and get depressive why I even subccumbed to hunger in the first place...I also try not to eat all day, come home but cannot control myself...have you ever thought of telling him? I don't know how old you are, but my ex boyfriend was 30 and could handle it well, we didn't break up bc of my ed...and I feel that communication can be the first step to recovery, I told my bestfriend just a few days ago, after all these years...and she was very considerate and supportive, she even wanted to come here and visit!!! Hope that comforted you in a way...

[canttell]

i live with my bf, and althought i am quite new to b/p.. i find that its hard to hide it. i want to binge so bad when he's here, but i know i cant purge without him finding out something is up... i normally eat super super healthy.. and i tend to binge while he is at work (before i go in.. we work opposite schedules) because i eat SO healthy.. he isnt surprised when i get sick from eating something bad for me... i try not to do it too often because then he will think something is up, and i dont want to have that discussion. im not ready for it.

ill agree with you that it is definately hard, but i guess its a good thing so i dont do it as often.

[KnuffleBunny]

The main reason I don't tell him is because about 2 1/2 years ago when I had a relapse, I told him I was getting sick from gallbladder problems. So any time I purged, he just assumed I was feeling sick and didn't question it. Plus, I don't want to put any other issues on him right now. I just feel like if I can keep up the b&p until everything else settles down, and I reach a better weight, I'll be ok to tell him and maybe stop.