feeling so sick,ashamed and disgusted!!!

[Needtolooseweight]

I have been back at uni for 3 weeks now and I have gained a full stone! Iv been drinking
Soo much and binging when I'm hungover and altho it was fun to start with it has now become
A routine that I can't get out of. I just can't get a handle on my eating. I feel so depressed!
Everything in my life is goin really well just now and I shud be happy but I just feel so fat and
Disgusting. Food has taken my happiness away from me and is controling my life. I used to bee
Bulimic and I had no life outside of b/ping and I jusrt can't go bak there, I need help gettin out of
This viscous binging cycle.I amnt bein sick just now so I am just gaining an gaining like there's no end.
I just binged on pasta and chocolate and I feel so sick! I did it cos I was feelin so guilty about my weight
And now I just want to burst into tears.
I need help I just duno how or where to get it. I feel so alone :(
Sorry for this depressin post!
Xxx

[philsen]

I feel exactly the same way... I'm so depressed at the moment...

If you are back at Uni, shouldn't they have free counciling or psychologists?? Maybe that could be your starting point, that way you will be on your way to regaining control??

I really hope you get everything back under control, you deserve it :)

Xx

[OnlyGoestoShow]

Please don't feel this way, babe. God, it just sucks when you hear about people going through the same things that you are. When someone else is going through what you are, you want to cradle them like the innocent and lovable children that they are....but when it happens to you, you are your worse critic and you want to punish or hate yourself...that's just something I realized as I read your post.

Well, what I am trying to say is that last year I gained forty pounds. It was my first year at college and I was away at campus. Now I am back on campus and I am going through the same thing. I just posted a blog about my misfortunes, in fact. :( I think we should support each other, and if you want my e-mail or my text you can just send me a Private Message, okay honey?