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Jtormented
10-01-2010, 07:40 PM
So like I'm really angry with myself right now.
not really now but earlier, like im drunk right now.
earlier, XD earlier, i was forced to "give a shit" about myself...
now im doing good...at least until this wears off...
bc im out of booz...i really wish i wasnt....damnit
vodka is the amzing in the fight against feeling like shit about yourself.
oh, and im not dwelling on my feelings...just trying to inore thm
they arent imortant. they are useless...they do no good. not for me.
they make me feel like buying a gun, a shot, and a bullet. how much you think that would cost... minus the 80$ ill need for booz for a week...im gonna start saving in case.
i miss my smirnofff
ohmyGott
Anyone know what its like growing up as a guy and having tits bigger then your mom?
i had motherfucking small C's before i met my dear friend ana. now they are like idfk i havnt fucking seen a pair of tits in seven months so i honestly couldnt fuckin say anymore...they fit in my hand like perfectly...my hands like idk how fucking big my hand is...jesus...
I'm so scared that i ran out of booz... i dont want to be sober you guys... i just want to be wanted,... And if any of you say im wanted you dont fucking know me damnit!@
you dont. so ou cant say that... thats like saying there are fucking purple kitties on mars, you dont fucking now so dnt say that.
I hate myself, i fucking hate myself....
I'm a worthless, peice of shit, at least thats what mom always said, XD....
and i guess by her definition, im a gay prostitute, a faggot, Pos, sponge, an accident....
damnit...
i think im done....venting isnt helping goddamnit....
ignoring my problems and drinking helps....OH SHIIT thats right i have no more goddamn booz, and mom had me spend my money i had saved up from fucking farmiong, on goddamn cleaning supplies, so i can clean her fucking house while she sits on her goddamn ass and tell me how much of a hasslle my exitance is....
i think im really done. my stomach hurts....i need a smoke...oh yeah my change went towads her cigs, leaving me to have to roll up butts...told you fuckers i was a peice of shit... i smoke garbage...eh anyway... bye you cunts. fucking hae you....less than me tho...smile fuckers.

something-blue
10-01-2010, 07:52 PM
Youre right, I dont know you.

And even if I did Im way too fucked up to want anybody.

And I have no idea which of your body parts are what size.

But I know what its like to hear your family say things like that. And more. And I know how booze and drugs and depression and anger mix. And I think I can understand how youre feeling. And how you dont want to. And Ill be here if you want to talk about it. Or want to be quiet about it, Ill be here anyways.

I know you probably dont care about what I think, but I hope that youre going to be OK. And please, please, please dont do anything to hurt yourself.

Not tonight. And not while youre drunk. And not now. Because they arent right. And youre not worthless.

So yeah...please be OK

Starlight53a
10-02-2010, 04:42 AM
**hugs** Poor you. I hope you feel better...

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