trustno1
05-19-2008, 10:10 PM
so i've been dating my first BF for 4.5 months.
i'm his first GF.
it's a serious relationship, we are very close, and yes we do sexual stuff.
he popped my cherry a month ago and he was a virgin too.
i'm 16, he's 17.
i adore his nerdy, quirky personality and his sexy skinny self but sometimes he can be really mean to me.
a little while ago i got to the point where i trusted him enough and i revealed to him that my dad had sexually abused me when i was 14.
he was devasted, cried and was so gentle and nuturing to me for about two weeks.
he knows about my SI and my OCD but i'm pretty much over those.
i told him that i "used" to have eating issues but now i'm okay.
but i'm not!
now he's taken it upon himself to cure/heal me; he's constantly saying stuff like, "get over it and don't worry."
like i could just do it if i wanted to.
for example, yesterday i told him (jokingly) that he couldn't dance all that well.
he replied, "can you dance? no, you can't. so how about you focus on your flaws for a while before you start making up some for me?"
am i being too sensitive? if i told him i'm Ana/Mia he's most likely say, "then go eat a sandwich." i'm not kidding; he vacillates between being my warm protector and my coldest critic for no reason.
i'm his first GF.
it's a serious relationship, we are very close, and yes we do sexual stuff.
he popped my cherry a month ago and he was a virgin too.
i'm 16, he's 17.
i adore his nerdy, quirky personality and his sexy skinny self but sometimes he can be really mean to me.
a little while ago i got to the point where i trusted him enough and i revealed to him that my dad had sexually abused me when i was 14.
he was devasted, cried and was so gentle and nuturing to me for about two weeks.
he knows about my SI and my OCD but i'm pretty much over those.
i told him that i "used" to have eating issues but now i'm okay.
but i'm not!
now he's taken it upon himself to cure/heal me; he's constantly saying stuff like, "get over it and don't worry."
like i could just do it if i wanted to.
for example, yesterday i told him (jokingly) that he couldn't dance all that well.
he replied, "can you dance? no, you can't. so how about you focus on your flaws for a while before you start making up some for me?"
am i being too sensitive? if i told him i'm Ana/Mia he's most likely say, "then go eat a sandwich." i'm not kidding; he vacillates between being my warm protector and my coldest critic for no reason.