hating myself

[size8jeans]

I feel almost ready to start a fast, but not quite. I *hate* binge eating. I have to get it under control, but I think fasting is the only way, because once I start eating I can't stop. I'm not sure when I will be ready. I *want* to be, but I'm not. I am fat and I suck because I eat and I hate that. I hate myself.

I'm a Christian and I know that God loves me, but He loves the inner me, and I hate the outer me that everyone can see (and that I have to look at in the mirror). :(

[Rhiannon]

I'm a Christian and I know that God loves me, but He loves the inner me, and I hate the outer me that everyone can see (and that I have to look at in the mirror).

may i second that?? i feel the same way!!! and it makes me so sad that i hate myself so much, that im abusing this body that is a BLESSING and though God loves me, i have made myself my own worst enemy.. im starting 28day/4week spiritual/personal/weight loss fast tmrw.. sept 2nd. if youre interested.. id love to work together to beat self-hate and to beat binges as a way of numbing feelings.. take care, love. xoxox rhi. msg me.

[size8jeans]

I messaged you. I can join you Friday probably.

[size8jeans]

Ok, so mostly fasting starting tomorrow for me. Anyone else in?

BTW, I can't do a full on fast for more than 2 days because the hunger keeps me from sleeping. So if I fast longer than 48 hours I have to eat something before bed just so I don't lie awake all night. Does anyone else have trouble sleeping when you're hungry??? I can get through the first night okay, but by the second night the hunger keeps me awake.

[philsen]

im like that i just lie there like a blob :( thinking about food, in a ugly spiral of emotion...

[loseweight]

i think god likes me better when im fasting
and eating as little
erm dun hate urself dun push urself u'll get there ..

[size8jeans]

Current photo of my ugly self, taken yesterday:
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[forgetme]

I hope you can figure a way out of binge eating that doesn't involve fasting, because thats just going to set you up for another binge. Best of luck!

[size8jeans]

I hope you can figure a way out of binge eating that doesn't involve fasting, because thats just going to set you up for another binge. Best of luck!

But at least I won't be binging every day for days on end.