What's the best way to kill myself? (TW?)

[Starlight53a]

I don't see the point in existing anymore, but killing myself seems like too much effort or pain... I know I could probably put a plastic thing over my head and suffocate, or poison myself, both of those sound easy. But is there any easier way? Life isn't fun, and if I was dead I wouldn't feel or care anymore, it would be great. So... Any suggestions? Feel free to try and talk me out of it if you want. But you don't need to bother, killing myself seems too difficult, so I probably won't even bother. But a plan for if/when I do is always good. Thanks for reading/replying/whatever...

[something-blue]

I'm not opposed to suicide, and I believe that there are valid reasons to end one's life. However, and I think this needs pointing out: You're 13, life sucks, Im afraid that's how it is.
I'm sure puberty, school, family and depression mushed together must feel like an unfairly heavy burden to bear at the moment, but that's temporary. There are drugs to help with depression, therapy, treatment, and things that look horrible right now may not be so bad later.
From your post I take that you dont believe in an afterlife, and that's ok. I dont either. Buf if you truly think that once you're dead, youre just...gone. Without memories, or emotions...then why not stick around here. Wait for the good, fun part to start. If ending your life really means ending...everything then I feel the only reasonable thing to do is grab on to every emotion you have now.
Did you ever feel the numbness that tends to come in bad phases, the feeling of being alone distant. Of losing reality even? What if being dead is like that? An eternity of nothing.

The thing about dying is that there is no easy way. Unless you've got a hospital and some willing shady doctors at your side, its always going to be messy, painful, and in all likelyhood incredibly undignified. If that alone isnt enough to hold you off, then imagine that someone will find you. People who love you will have to sit through a service held for you. Did you know a suicide in the family increases the risk of other members killing themselves?

In any case I truly hope nobody here would go shouting tips at you. Id find that truly indecent and irresponsible. When I felt like killing myself I liked to watch a film called "Wristcutters: A love story". Its very sweet if you havent seen it already.

I hope that you feel better soon and if not manage to talk to a doctor or councelor you trust, in order to get help

xo

[Starlight53a]

Thanks for replying. To be honest, I actually don't care if people would be sad/inconvenienced by me dying, because I'd be dead, so I wouldn't know about it. I'll probably keep living until dying becomes easier than putting up with life. It's not like anything bad is even happening, I'm just depressed. There's no point in me even trying to get help or talk anyone because they wouldn't take it seriously. I said something like this to my mom once, and she just started joking about it, kinda... :( Maybe I'll get lucky and die from accumulated brain damage caused by asphyxiation. Is that possible? Oh well.

[something-blue]

I know nothing I say could really help you, this being the internet and all...but if I were there and this was real life Id really like to hug you now.

[sadgirlsmiling]

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Above all, it is ok to feel this way. If you feel bad about it, please remind yourself of that. Your feelings are valid, no matter what anyone else says. Whatever hurts you matters, even if some people don't understand. No one can know what's inside of you. We can only try, given what has happened in our own lives. If that makes you feel distant, that's ok too.

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