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daretofly11
08-07-2010, 04:00 AM
When I was 12 or 13 I remember watching Degrassi, Ellie. It put the idea in my head the idea that I tangoed with alot until a safety pin became the tool of choice. I came home from school and carved four perfect lines. At first I felt guilty, was I copying what I had seen on tv? Despite that the next day and months to come i felt special, I felt as though I had a secret it was all mine, and no-one could take it away from me. It wasnt for a few months of safety pin cuts that someone found out, a teacher of all people. I cried an insane amount as they called my parents. My secret was gone but i still danced with the idea soon learned that i could used razors, sharpeners bleed feel calm and watch the scar heal nuture it.

I havent done it in quite some time, about 4 or 5 months to be exact but my life being as out of control as it is makes the idea dance in my head. The last time was due to a medication making me miserable I etched out 5 lines on each ankle....always symmetrical as if in a perfect pattern.

Sometimes I look at the scars and hate them as the sun tans them and they become more noticeable. Sometimes like now i want to add to the "collection"

Thats my story...

Mia2bAna
08-12-2010, 09:41 AM
Wow. Nice. It's pretty much the same with me. But the nurse found out and then I had to talk to the social worker for half a class period. But I like the fact that movies can trigger you to cut. For me, it's okay for them to trigger you because that's what they are supposed to do for cutters/bulimics/anorexics etc.

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