Gaining weight from not throwing up...

[baddass]

I've been bulimic for three years, but desperately want to stop. I'm getting leg cramps from poor circulation, hair loss, bloating, etc. Anyway, for the past year I've pretty much not digested anything. Now I'm eating 800 calories and burning off 400, but gaining a pound a day! I realize this is because my body is not used to having any food inside for longer than an hour, but of course it's really frustrating. Does anyone else experience weight gain when they stop throwing up? What has me frustrated is that I'm not eating a lot and exercising most of it off, but still gaining weight...

[affingirl]

I hate being bulimic,but I don't dare to stop.I'm so afraid of gainig weight.Bulimics tend to have lower metabolism rate,thus when we start normal eating habits without the purging/puking/whatsoever,we do gain more "stubborn" weight that won't go away easily.My problem is my chubby,round face.How do I make it look better/reduce the puffiness.damn ugly!any tips?

[blue stars]

This is what I am terrified of too... I've been binge/purging for over a year now. I've been trying really hard to quit purging, but the fear of putting weight on is so overwhelming that I can't stop at all. Even though I am not even losing weight anymore, and in fact, probably am gaining it which is scaring me. Do most people put heaps of weight on when they stop?

[baddass]

Your body will eventually adjust if you stick with eating small amounts every 3 hours. I actually ate a doughnut for the first time and actually digested it last night. It felt so weird and disgusting, but I actually weighed less this morning. The water weight from purging will eventually come off, but it takes about a week.

[zci]

As hard as it is, and I AM trying...but yes I agree...when I eat relatively normal for a few days, I actually feel less bloated and I look more slender...its bc our bodies retain a lot of water when BP cycle continues...but it is hard, I am back now from a week of vacation, where I was eating more regularly...that is also why I wasnt online :-) and still I feel so endlessly guilty and fat...eventhough on the long run your system will adjust...Im not there yet....sad, but since I came home, I felt soooo free and already BP twice :-(

[Static]

Today I've just hit my record of 6 days straight without purging... and there is a visible difference with the puffy cheeks. Definitely gone down a bit.
This IS fucking hard.

[zci]

thats f... awesome though!!! congrats!!! good for u!!!! u r an inspiration!!