Recovery without help???

[Thinandbones]

Okay so I'm a little bit confused about something. I'm recovered but i didn't do anything???

So I fasted and counted cals and exercised and cried for a few months and then it just...stopped. No therapy whatsoever, it just died down over time? I mean it was dying down in the first place but when I got back from camp it was like gone. I still feel fat but I don't think I'm obese, and I don't feel guilty when eating anymore. I eat out of boredom, when I'm sad, etc. My weight is still 112 lb after gaining that 4 lb from binging for a month, but it hasn't really changed after that.

How the heck did that happen? I mean just a few months ago I cried when I ate half a cup of dry cereal and earlier I scarfed down a cup of ice cream and don't feel anything.
Sometimes I wish it was back but I know that's terirble. I went through it once, cried myself to sleep a lot, and now that it's gone I know I should be greatful. What I'm doing now is just making sure I don't binge everyday, I exercise at least 3 times a week for 30 min or more and I stay positive-ish??? That last one's an exaggeration lol

So umm in short what the heck happened and why did it just disappear? I know camp helped quite a bit but what else?

[dreamxonxaxwish]

If I were you, I wouldn't question it. Just be happy with it! I've had time periods where this has happened - no help and I've just been normal, but I've always relapsed. Hence why I'm here. Don't question it - just stick with it and try not to relapse!

[PSALM]

Hey Thinandbones!

That is fantastic!!!!! I am so happy for you. The exact same thing kind of happened to me. I was Bulimic for 4 years, of which I developed an anxiety disorder from, then I went on these antidepressants in an effort to stop my anxiety problems and panic attacks and as surely as they went away, so did my bulimia! I was ecstatic. I took them for six months and just stopped taking them recently. I feel completely normal again and I cannot believe how lucky I am to get out of the nightmare. I feel for all the girls who are Bulimic on this site as I used to be in the same position, BPing all day and night, crying myself to sleep thinking it was going to be the end of me. I was so afraid. I didn't think it would EVER end. But now, coming back to this site for the first time in months. I am so glad to be in recovery.

I used to be afraid to recover because I thought I would put on weight. That was true for the first couple of months. But now it has all gone down again and I eat like a normal person again, I never think about overeating, I never thinking about purging my food (OK not true, on occassions I think about purging my food) But never follow through. I keep a semi strict eye on the amount of food I eat, but I sometimes let go a bit on the weekends, but it does not affect my weight at all because I still work out, but only twice a week now.

At the beginning when I first started recovering, I felt the same way as you do, (that maybe I wanted my ed back). In a weird way I kind of missed it, because it made me feel like it was a part of me that I was losing. So I B\P a couple more times by pure force because I wanted to feel like I wasn't really losing it, but on these occassions, after I would B\P I didn't feel the same as I used to, the rush, feeling good for a moment. The whole thing was just difficult and it gave me no high. It just felt silly and unecessary, I was like (Why did I do that?) And slowely, I just stopped and have never felt better.