Sapphire
06-22-2010, 06:57 PM
ok, in the past few days i have gotten so upset at my husband for looking at attractive women on tv or pictures of other guys avitars on his steriod forum (a lot of them have very sexy woman barely dressed as their avi).
so i have gotten so upset over this for the past 4yrs we have been together, yesterday i decided im done... then well today i found myself getting annoyed again...
so, i have concluded that he is a guy (no offense guys) and all men are basically pigs. its just a point of what they do or do not do.
he doesnt cheat on me (im pretty sure), he doesnt go out with women friends, he doesnt go out with the guys, ... generally speaking, if hes not at work hes home or with me somewhere.
basically he is a good guy, but he is a guy all the same so that means anything with tits and an ass will make him look (even if i dont catch him looking).
i have decided that i dont give a shit what he does any more. look, dont look, gauck whatever... im just pulling back from the situation and he can be whatever.
i am studying to take the exam to get into grad school and studying is taking most of my time. i have a serious love affair with numbers. sex or numbers and equations ??? 9 times out of 10 id take the numbers (plus i dont worry about how fat i feel that day when i open a book and stimulate my mind)
the sex is good when we have it. i dont think weve been together in 2-3 months maybe 4 months??? i just dont give a shit any more. i masterbate once in a while and im good.
i feel like we have a really weird relationship. its not sex based or hardly includes sex at all so fvck it. not that i want a sex based relationship, but some sort of sex life would be nice once in a while.
hummm well maybe im using studying and numbers as a distraction for what im not getting.
i think im trying to pull away from him because i honestly dont know what kind of relationship we have or how strong it really is.
he says things like "well when this job ends im moving south (notice the 'I'M MOVING') if you want to come thats fine. if you dont thats fine too. but thats what im doing"
how is that supposed to be taken? no pressure or just not really caring?
well i have sort of gone all over the place in this post. my point was just, im done giving a shit what or who he looks at... plus, i can look at anyone i want to so i guess its fair.
for me to not be jealous means to care less... so im trying to care less.
so i have gotten so upset over this for the past 4yrs we have been together, yesterday i decided im done... then well today i found myself getting annoyed again...
so, i have concluded that he is a guy (no offense guys) and all men are basically pigs. its just a point of what they do or do not do.
he doesnt cheat on me (im pretty sure), he doesnt go out with women friends, he doesnt go out with the guys, ... generally speaking, if hes not at work hes home or with me somewhere.
basically he is a good guy, but he is a guy all the same so that means anything with tits and an ass will make him look (even if i dont catch him looking).
i have decided that i dont give a shit what he does any more. look, dont look, gauck whatever... im just pulling back from the situation and he can be whatever.
i am studying to take the exam to get into grad school and studying is taking most of my time. i have a serious love affair with numbers. sex or numbers and equations ??? 9 times out of 10 id take the numbers (plus i dont worry about how fat i feel that day when i open a book and stimulate my mind)
the sex is good when we have it. i dont think weve been together in 2-3 months maybe 4 months??? i just dont give a shit any more. i masterbate once in a while and im good.
i feel like we have a really weird relationship. its not sex based or hardly includes sex at all so fvck it. not that i want a sex based relationship, but some sort of sex life would be nice once in a while.
hummm well maybe im using studying and numbers as a distraction for what im not getting.
i think im trying to pull away from him because i honestly dont know what kind of relationship we have or how strong it really is.
he says things like "well when this job ends im moving south (notice the 'I'M MOVING') if you want to come thats fine. if you dont thats fine too. but thats what im doing"
how is that supposed to be taken? no pressure or just not really caring?
well i have sort of gone all over the place in this post. my point was just, im done giving a shit what or who he looks at... plus, i can look at anyone i want to so i guess its fair.
for me to not be jealous means to care less... so im trying to care less.