sick of feeling like a failure

[truthful87]

I'm so TIRED of beating myself up and feeling guilty all the time! A lot of the time I feel like I've made no progress in the last year with my ed, but then part of me knows I have... It's just impossible for me to be objective about it. My therapist said she thinks I've definitely made progress, but I just don't see it. Progress for me would mean losing at least 30 pounds and continuing to lose more... so unless I lose weight (because I genuinely need to) I don't think I'm doing well at all with my recovery. Help! Does anyone else feel like this? the constant guilt?

[Massive-Molly]

Oh yes, I know that guilt too well. But eating disorders aren't just physical. You may need to lose the weight, but you need to work on your mind first. We can't measure recovery on the weight we've lost/gained. Changing your weight is usually a part of recovery, but maybe not right away. Eating disorders are primarily psychological, not physical. So just because you don't see physical changes, doesn't mean you're not making progress. And recovery takes time. Chin up, honey. And good luck in recovery! I know you can do it!