Mad at the world

[shlizz90]

Why can't I stay in recovery?
why can't I just STOP THINKING ABOUT FOOD

I want to be better...I want to stop I just can't
I hated life before and I hate it now

I'm starting to wonder if trying is even worth it anymore.

[bluebutterfly]

I believe there comes a point in your life you just think 'oh what the hell, i don't care anymore' and you stop stressing about everything.
go buy some strawberries and as you eat them try and think how tasty they are.
spend a day just laying on your couch thinking how good it feels not to do anything and just be. good luck!

-B

[zci]

I relate to you, I know u have posted this a while ago, but I also have a really really hard time of letting habbits go...I feel evil if I eat, so I purge,but I also know how destructive it is...have to get my esophagus checked..feelin ashamed and crappy...also as stupid as this may sound, I also am glad for some attention...and u know, I also think if I should try, but every group I relate with girls/women and feel understood, and it makes sense!!I wanna give up and go to group sessions and get this awesome support! bottom line is, we all have to actually want to get better, noone can take that decision from us/ me...its worth a shot!