All i can think about is b/p

[shlizz90]

It's been a really rough day because ever since i relapsed last night and used ipecac all i want to do is binge and be able to purge again.

i can't bring myself to eat even the tiniest amount of food because i'm afraid it'll turn into more

i hate myself so much i couldn't even get ready this morning because i can't bear to look at myself or deal with my pants not becoming loser

i haven't even answered the phone because i can't even fake it today

all i can think about is binging and food and excersising....

if only someone could just put me out of my misery

[x2to00x]

please be careful with the ipecac. that can kill you and continuous use can eat away at the muscles in your heart causing a heart attack. there's got to be a better way than that.