BarbieGirl
05-31-2010, 07:14 PM
i hate it!!
I just want to give up on everything now!!
I really do love him but when he asked me to eat....i just couldnt do it =(
ARGH!! I'M SO FUCKING PATHETIC!!
I love him and want him back!!
I want my baby back!! ='(
He was one of the only things that keeps me sane!!
He understood!! About EVERYTHING too!
He even understood about my ED!!
But he took me out for a meal and i broke down!!
Like actualy started crying and stopped breathing in the restrant!!
He told me that he loves me and always will but he hates seeing me like this and can't watch me do it to myself anymore ='(
We were both sitting there crying!!
I HAVE NEVER SEEN HIM CRY!!
I want him back!! ='(
but i cant eat..
I hate myself sooooo much right now!!
We went for the meal on saturday night when i got back from England and we didnt break up until today!!
He came over about 3 hours ago, everything was fine! i was talking to people and then it went downhill from there and he has only just left!! I want him to walk through the door again!!
I want him to tell me that he is sorry and that we can work this out!!
I feel like my heart is in the dirt somewhere!!
everything feels so hard right now ='(
even opening my eyes feels hard >.<
i don't know what to do anymore!!
I want my baby back!! my one and only!!
actually i dont think my hearts in the dirt....i think he has take it with him!!
='(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just want to give up on everything now!!
I really do love him but when he asked me to eat....i just couldnt do it =(
ARGH!! I'M SO FUCKING PATHETIC!!
I love him and want him back!!
I want my baby back!! ='(
He was one of the only things that keeps me sane!!
He understood!! About EVERYTHING too!
He even understood about my ED!!
But he took me out for a meal and i broke down!!
Like actualy started crying and stopped breathing in the restrant!!
He told me that he loves me and always will but he hates seeing me like this and can't watch me do it to myself anymore ='(
We were both sitting there crying!!
I HAVE NEVER SEEN HIM CRY!!
I want him back!! ='(
but i cant eat..
I hate myself sooooo much right now!!
We went for the meal on saturday night when i got back from England and we didnt break up until today!!
He came over about 3 hours ago, everything was fine! i was talking to people and then it went downhill from there and he has only just left!! I want him to walk through the door again!!
I want him to tell me that he is sorry and that we can work this out!!
I feel like my heart is in the dirt somewhere!!
everything feels so hard right now ='(
even opening my eyes feels hard >.<
i don't know what to do anymore!!
I want my baby back!! my one and only!!
actually i dont think my hearts in the dirt....i think he has take it with him!!
='(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!