i think i want this....

[I-Hate-You-Mia]

yeah actually i know i do.

I WANT TO RECOVER. im not sure how ready i am to give up all my weird eating/exercise ocds but i know i dont want to purge anymore. well thats all really. im in a real weird mood. lack of sleep or something. everyones/everything is getting on my nerves today...the recovery section always looks so supportive and happy....im tired of encouraging myself or letting people encourage me to binge purge. im done with it. i dont expect replies i think i just needed to get this fuzz out of my head so it seems clearer...it still seems fuzzy. i need to stop typing and maybe sleep.

xxx

[nathrakh]

Well its great that u want to recover. U made an awesome start one week ago, with the B/P free week. So guess u can carry on from there. Getting better one step at a time, slowely forward. If u believe in urself u can do it. I also read it takes 14-21 days to break a habbit. So if u keep from binging, it will feel natural not to do it anymore soon enough.

[JEANNE]

wanting it is the first step and a BIG step at that, Congrats!!!!! The recovery section is very helpful, very encouraging, very positive! I think you will find that you are welcomed with open arms.......... so great to have you thinking good things for yourself. Beginning with wanting NOT to purge is so great, such an incredible step towards living a healthy life. I'm encouraged for you and by you. Go get some sleep (!) You get onto the recovery section and you will always get tons of replies and honest, sincere, genuine support for whatever you are trying to do recovery-wise. Have a good sleep. :)
xxoo Jeanne

[madeofstars]

yay beth, i'm happy for you. and hey, if recovery for you right now means stopping b/ping then thats fine. You dont have to be completely recovered from every little ED habit you have, I'm kind of struggling with recovering from bingeing possibly meaning a slip back into anorexic tendencies, but if I can recover from the bingeing first then I'll be in a better place to tackle the rest later on.

It's all about baby steps. Thats the most important thing I've learned so far. And yes, this part of the forum is amazing :) Join us!!! :P

[LightsTurnOff]

I can relate to you deciding you are just through with certain habits, as much as sometimes I feel I need an eating disorder in my life for control I don't want to put myself through purging, self harming etc anymore. They're not things any of us need to do to survive, they're just coping methods and there has to be a better way.

It's often late at night when I sit and think about what I have now in comparison to what I could have had or what friends my age have and it just doesn't compare. It's only then I realise how much time I have wasted, I can totally understand why I took the path I did but like you say I don't want this for myself anymore. It just took a while for me to actually see it.

I really hope you can take your new found motivation and use it in the best way possible to free yourself from as much of this as possible. Like others have said it's a long road, you don't have to give up all of your behaviours all of a sudden, but slowly cutting them down will make a massive difference!

[Starving-Beauty]

Hey cousin,
im so happy that you really want to recover from mia because really she does us no good and you are better off without her,you have gone 6 days without her so you can do this shit,you can get rid of her for good!i really want to recover from it to and like you i just want to eat as little as i can exercise 2 hours a day and just work towards restricting and have the occasional maintaience day but i want to stay far far away from b&p.we can do this one step at at a time.xxx

[I-Hate-You-Mia]

woah! thanks for all the replies and support guys :) day 9...im having a maintenance day so todays guna be a big test im on my way to tescos now....im hoping i make the right choice. hows everyone else doing???xx

[madeofstars]

Don't say you "hope" you'll make the right choice, say you "WILL" make the right choice! :)

You can do this! You've done so well already- I like what nathrakh said about breaking a habit in 14-21 days- you're so close to 14, by the time you get to 21, your b/ping habit will be broken! Amazing!

[HollowedShame]

I'm really glad to hear that you're wanting to recover. It's a tough choice to make, and it's a long journey ahead of you, but I know you can do it! You're so much better than this eating disorder, you deserve to be happy! Neither 'Mia' nor 'Ana' will allow you that happiness, it's something you can only find within yourself. I wish you the best of luck on your journey to recovery- you are making the right choice and though it may not seem like it initially, it will get easier! Be strong! This is the ultimate test of your strength now, it's going to take a lot of will power to kick this, but if you can that proves you to be stronger than any diet or fast ever could. We're here for you! =)