help

[annabella]

hey all, i have kind of migrated from the ana forum but i am so lost. I have moved house and now have pretty much the whole day to myself. I have started b/p'ing 3/4 times a day and taking laxatives.

I can't help myself, i am spending so much money and feel totally out of control.

I feel so disgusted with myself, i really dont want to put any weight on. I wish i could be ana again but it's like the only thing in my life is thinking about and eating food.

I really don't know what to do. I suffer from depression and was recovering but it's getting me so down at the moment that i am worried i will start falling down that slope again.

I'm really sorry to whine so much, i could cope with ana, in fact it made me feel great but i am so out of control at the moment i don't know what to do.

How do i get my control back?
Sorry
xx

[Triptoto]

Dear annabella,

I sympathise with your suffering. I was in a similar situation - b/p ing 3/4 times a day. What has helped me is to stop eating sugar. I've found that I am addicted to sugar. I completely cut out sugar 3 days ago and have not B/P'd since!! It's the sugar that sent me over the edge.

And don't bother with laxatives, they DO NO GOOD AT ALL for losing weight. Calories are absorbed way before they get to the intestine and laxatives only work on the large intestine.

Try stopping or cutting back on sugar and flour for a few days and see if there is a difference. I found B/P'ing with fruits, vegetables, rice etc. not nearly as tempting as cake, cereal, etc.

You can do it! But you need to make a change!

Good luck,
Triptoto