Going to get caught....Support please

[mustbethin61394]

I just cut in the bathroom at school. I think it is pretty bad. The worst part is that i bled through my pants....I am going to get caught i know. It is horrible to think about but i already know it. They suspect it. My boyfriend broke up with me because his parents said that he couldn't see me. Which pretty much sucks...And i don't think he is the kind of guy that is going to stick up for himself. I really need some help but i can't ask for it. Everyone thinks i am doing sooo good. But soon they will find out about it. I really need some support on this one. And the first place i thought of was this.

If you don't know about me i am a cutter and i have bulimia. I have had both for almost 5 years. I have depression and border line personaility disorder. And my boyfriend is bipolar he cuts and he has horrible parents....

I know many people don't post things because they don't know what to say. But i just need to know somebody is out there.

[madeofstars]

I'm here. I'm sorry you are feeling so awful. Do you have any support in real life, a doctor, a friend, a therapist? You shouldnt have to go through all of this alone. Would you consider talking to someone professional? I dont know how old you are etc, but if you're over 18 it's confidential, and if you're not there are anonymous helplines/websites etc...I only know UK based things, but I'm sure someone here could advise on what to do in the US.

If your cuts are bad, you need to take care of them. Go and see a doctor or nurse if you're worried, keep them clean and covered etc. I know how terrifying it is at the thought of people finding out, but sometimes it's for the best if it means you can get the help you need. I'm sure people would rather you reached out and asked for help now rather than letting things get worse and worse.

Take care of yourself.

[JEANNE]

oh, hon I have to agree with all that madeofstars said! You aren't alone, we are here, BUT as scary as it is, you need someone in real life too. I used to cut (don;t anymore) and it can get way out of control quickly. If you are cutting at school and bleeding through your pants, that is quite serious.
I really advise that you speak to someone soon, please. You really don't have to tackle all of this alone, there are people that want to help.

take care.. do take care of yourself. xxoo Jeanne