62 days purge free until now

[gymnast100]

I was doing so well. Even when I've been bingeing I've only been exercising to get rid of the calories I had eaten.

But then today I ate pizza, I don't know why I even ate it but I had the biggest craving that I couldn't seem to get rid of, so I walked into the supermarket and bought 25% extra strength laxatives. And then 2 mins ago I took them, not just 2 but 8 of them, in the hope that I can rid myself of the food I've eaten.

And I know logically that it will only get rid of the water weight, but as long as I am even .2 less on the scale I don't care. For me that seems worth it. Isn't that sad! I need laxatives to make me feel better.

I don't know anymore, anyone feel the same?

[uroboros]

Im sorry to read this. I had the same thing last month. I went 3 weeks without purging. First i was gaining. But then i finally stopped gaining. And then i binged. I just didnt wanna lose everything i gained and purged it. I purged for 2/3 days straight after that. But i decided to have a clean start. No binge-purging again this week. It felt terrible, but we gotta move on :)

[gymnast100]

Thankyou Nathkrah, we can get through the rest of the week with no b/p

[uroboros]

There is a no binge post on the mia section of the forum, with a lot of people joining in aswell. Guess that includes purging for a lot :) We started this week.

[I-Hate-You-Mia]

awww chick im sorry! but to be fair 62 days!!! wow thats pretty amazing! you must be so strong i know you can do it again!! join our thread :):) and dont panic too much just pizza is fine...i would have gone crazy had had EVERYTHING! xxx

[Marialise]

Yeah! Wow!! 62 days... thats AWESOME!! I'm so proud of you!! Unfortunately, a little relapsing is normal but you did pretty well at containing to just one pizza (not pizza and fries and cookies and a milkshake).

Please try not to be too mad at yourself about the laxs, too... thats what we know... its what comes "naturally" to us know so its totally understandable. Hopefully next time you'll make it longer and be able to contain youself to a smaller binge... or even just a treat :)

Stay strong chica!! I'm proud of you :)

[gymnast100]

Thanks guys, you are the best. I will definetly join your thread.