Today's purging was unintentional. Like someone else was controlling me.

[christ]

I'm an anorexic with Bulimic tendencies, and today, was the first time in weeks that I made myself purge..
It felt like someone else was controlling my body.
I got home from school as usual, sat down to dinner with my parentals as usual, went upstairs to change as usual.. and then just like that, I was in the bathroom throwing up. I was out of control and possessed.
I didn't even try to hide the noise. It just happened, unplanned.
Has this happened to anyone else?
I don't understand what's caused this..
I actually hadn't thought about Anorexia or Bulimia all day, and then out of nowhere..

It's times like this, when I seriously think I have mental problems.

[skinny1doll]

well, sorry to tell you that but anorexia is a mental illness... maybe some girls here starve themselves and-or b-p to loose weight but it's a disease.... I feel the need to get rid of anything I eat... I just can't stand it... I know a lot of the calories are absorbed, but the "presence" of the food is a problem for me... it is different from you, but I understand you... hope you will get better.... don't really know what else to tell you, because I'm ill too... posssed by that voice all the time, that tells me that I don't need to have food inside me, that I feeling hunger (it doesn't happen a lot to me) is a good thing.... I try to calm down that voice, keep my weight at a "resonable wieght", a weight that I'm able to function almost normally, but I struggle everyday... sorry I wrote too much about me.... just to tell you that you are not an "alien" or anything, that you just need help....