''friends'' p!ss me off....

[anonomousmia]

i always take things to heart, im probably over sensitive....but i arranged a lil party, invited 15 close mates, and in the past week, 10 have dropped out, and it's 2moro (sat), now there are 5 left, one on whom is my sister. and im like , FFS, what's the point?!!? and the 4 friends that r comin arn't even my close ones, just mates in the circle you know!? so it's like, weird they're coming with out the others?! probs will call it off.

i'm upset now, but acting angry. and now i want to binge. big time. but i've already digested 800 cals today, and i don't like to binge when I've ate. (I like to binge empty, so it's ok to digest 1,000 cals of the binge if you get me?!). Fuck. sake.

[Marialise]

I'm sorry, honey!! DONT DO IT THOUGH!! Eff them!! Urgh I hate it when people cancel... was that the fancy dress party?

Or you know what... you could just say screw the stupid people who aren't coming and invite other people and have fun without them... THEIR LOSS :)

Hope you start feeling better honey! It'll work out one way or another :)

[anonomousmia]

Thanks 4 replying. I binged though. Cuz i 4t, I've been restricting to look gd 4 this fancy dress, and what? we're not going to do it? might aswell binge. plus i felt shite. so i did. normally i just eat everything on a binge, and estimate calories after, but this time i wrote down exactly what I had as I went along so I could total the calories....tempted to list it all. Infact I will:
Work Dinner: 500, choc peanuts: 200....fine, but then.....
Chicken and stuffing sandwhich 300
6 weetabix, milk and sugar 600
2 sausage rolls 700
cheese and onion pasty 450
2 large teacakes and butter 700
bbq chicken wings 350
2 cream and jam donuts 500
2 cream and jam scones 800
3 choc chip cookies 375
6 mini magnums 720
2 more cookies 250
6 more weetabix, milk and sugar 600
tub of pringles 900ish
6 cinnamon and raisin cookies 660

GRAND TOTAL...dum dum duuuuuuuuuummmmmm: 8605 cals eaten!!
hmm, im such a whale. 7:30am, havn't slept cuz bin b/p'ing all night and feel good though. like i want to run. i think i will. who needs friends. xx

[päivi]

yeah, who needs friends?! I always try to be able to do everything on my own, because you yourself are the only person you can trust. As Stromae says in the song: "Who talks of family talks of problems, because problems dont just come on their own". I can so relate to that! I stopped throwing parties years ago, even for my birthday, bc people never came anyways, and if they did, they started arguing and i felt worse after the party than before. NOw people are all: What do you do on your birthday? And I say: NOthing. And they go: Freak....! Even my parents get on umy nerves bc they always tell me to amuse myself...leave me alone! so however your party turns out, remember that you still have yourself...and youre the strongest, smartest and most resourceful person in the entire world!! i feel so sorry for your binge, but you will be alright, you're strong!!!

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[I-Hate-You-Mia]

arghhh i actually hate it when people always bail its so annoying!! lodsa peeps said they wud come out for my 21st and most ended up bailing! its like if ya not guna kum just say no straight away!!

and iv dun that before arranged sumthin tried to lose for it restricting and then for whatever reason wasnt going i just thought fuck it and b/p!!!

also ur b/p was pretty epic i love scones and magnums!!...i deff have a massive urge to binge purge now!!! x x x

[Roses]

aw hun :( friends sometimes feel like enemies don't they..even ur closest friends can let u down,
but maybe they have their reasons for letting u down, but that shouldn't get u down..
does that make sense??

that's why it's good to come online and talk to ur online family, we always understand and won't let u down.
hope ur ok hun.
xoxo