It's worse now...

[Falling_under]

So I'm not thin... and I've had an eating disorder for a long time now on and off...or maybe it was always there. Anyway... my mother recently saw a clairvoyant(she helps the police find missing people) and took my scarf to her. The woman actually told her I have a severe eating disorder and body image disorder. She said this is going to get much worse in the future and it needs to be fixed now. My mom isn't one of those mothers who makes a project out of everything...but this time she basically told my whole family. And now I'm constantly being questioned about what I ate, when did i eat and they are trying to feed me every 5 min. My brother is also making comments in front of my aunts and cousins and I'm not sure if they know...and if they dont I would like to keep it that way. His comments are hurting me...i feel like he's trying to help but he's making it worse... and to top it all off his beautiful thin fiance knows and made some comments too! Are they trying to kill me? This makes me not want to eat at all. And this whole thing isn't fair because I've been eating a fair amount lately...maybe like 800-900 calories? Thats a lot for me. . . anyway I suddenly wrote this here because my mom came in to my room cause i left my class- I feel terrible and it has nothing to do with my stomach fyi- to see how i was and my brother walked in after and was like " What? Her stomach hurts? It's because she's bulimic." I'm not...by the way...but for some reason when they left ...I broke down in tears. I want to just continue the way things were but what do i do??
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I lied my stomach does hurt a little but I would never say that to them.

[quodsumeris]

thats tough sweetie. trust me, i know all about it. i've just coming off recovery and working to undo all the damage i did (gaining weight). my roommate knows about my disordered behavior and now she watches me like a hawk. its very difficult to get rid of food around her. plus, i'm a great cook and baker--just today she asked for a german chocolate cake!

when my family was on me about whether or not i was skipping meals, I would just make a crack about my weight "does it LOOK like i'm skipping meals?" then laugh and pop a small piece of food into your mouth. (i'd store it under my tongue and then toss it out later, just try not to swallow.) or i would say something like "i could STAND to skip a few meals! but who can resist [insert food in question here]" then pile it on your plate.

hang tough, you can make it!! after a few weeks, they'll move on, trust me. the more you react emotionally, the more they'll keep pushing. if you ever want to chat, send me a pm.

QUODSUMERIS
:I am what you shall become:

[Falling_under]

Thank you for replying- you have no idea how much what you said helped to hear. I will definitely try what you said...especially.."Does it look like i'm skipping any meals?" =)