going the doctors

[twinkel]

okay so i have to go the doctors soon for this HPV needel its probebly going to be in my arm but the nurs will see my cuts. I dont know what to do i was planning to miss the appoment but its kinda importent

[gmacarroll]

Nurses have seen my scars several times...they always ask and I just tell them the "truth"-I used to cut, but now i've stopped (not technically a lie, but I do still do it occasionally when things get really bad, so it's not really the full truth). Generally they don't say or do anything about it, or they ask if i'm getting help. I just say "ya, i'm seeing someone about it". Really, there isn't much they can do, so don't worry too much. Just tell them you've been seeing someone and haven't done it for a week or so (depending on how old your cut looks).

[twinkel]

thaks thats helped me stop worrying, the cuts dont look very new so ill say i have stoped

[gmacarroll]

ya, I have SO many scars from cutting (and they are hypotrophic scars, so they are really big and stick out above my skin and stuff :( ugly ugly). And even before I was 18 (and they were legally unable to tell my parents I was cutting because it's breach of doctor/patient confidentiality because I was no longer a minor) no one ever talked to my parents about it. They always believed me when I said I was getting help, or I "used" to cut. No questions asked, no fuss made. Never had anyone make a huge deal and call a psychologist, or hospitalize me for "endangering myself", no one put me/asked me if I was on anti-depressants, nothing.

Honestly, as bad as this sounds, I don't think they really care. I've been hospitalized so many times (I have stomach issues, apart from my ED) and whenever anyone saw my cuts they treated me like shit, like I didn't deserve medical help because I obviously wouldn't appreciate it because I was hurting myself anyways. Why waste their time on someone like me? Also, a lot of them figured I was probably doing it for attention, so why feed into my problem by giving me the attention I was "seeking" (I wasn't doing it for attention), that would just validate my actions right? Might be different from where you come from, but here no one gives a shit what you do. as long as you put on a front that you are ok (even if it's obviously fake) then they've done their jobs and they're done with you.

As a side note, I was always scared shitless whenever I went to the doctors and they had to take my blood pressure, or give me needles etc... because it was super obvious as to what i was doing (couldn't be like "oh, my cat did it", because clearly it was not a cat). I always figured someone, sometime would decide i was insane and then they'd lock me up for being crazy. lol, dumb i know, but i always (and still do honestly) felt like they'd decide I was a threat to myself and then that would be that, lock up and force to talk about my feelings and what not :S

I'm sure everything will be ok though :D

[Jess]

It'll be okay! Nurses see stuff like that everyday. I've had plenty of nurses notice mine. Some don't say anything, and some might just ask if you are getting any support for it. The only reason they'd make a big deal about it is if you have fresh gaping wounds and they are concerned for your safety. But since that isn't the case, you really don't have anything to be afraid about. Good luck :)

[x_Brutal-Beauty_x]

Oh my god, twinkel. The exact same thing happened to me. I'm part of a study, so I had to go in and get 3 HPV needles, on seperate occasions. The first two times, the rule hadn't yet been made, about it having to be in the arm you don't write with, so I was okay. Then the third needle, however, had to be on my left arm. Fortunately, the doctor didn't even ask about it, but I was pretty worried...

Anyways, I don't know if it will help, but mabye try coming up with a cover story, or if they are on your wrist, bracelets, or wrist bands? Hope this helps.
B.B <3