Finding The Strength...

[Pinkie]

Hi I'm new to the website.

I know what it's like... we find the strength to do this to ourselves, ignorant of the effects it takes on our bodies... though recently my heart has been feeling a bit strange, so I researched more about the side effects of being bulimic and discovered a lot of us end up with heart conditions that can lead to heart attacks = dead...

I guess that's why I'm reaching out a little now... I know we react out of impulse, the way we feel after a binge is horrible so we reverse the effects as soon as possible or feel terribly guilty for eating that much!

Guilty for eating! its such a sad thing...

"Am I prepared to kill myself?"

I've read the facts, the results of what happens in the end from having this eating disorder... I just never think about it seriously when I'm feeling guilty from eating too much :(

I feel like I'm fighting a fight and in the end I will lose either way...

Here is a song of strength: Superchick - Courage
it's about ED, share it.

for those of you who can relate, this song really hits home

I guess that's how I found my way here...?

"together we'll make it through somehow" *huggs*

[IceSkater]

Im really trying to fight it right now. Im hopefully, on Sun. night, going to call a hope line, and talk to this one guy popular in my are who helps people like us. Then I will hopefully on Tuesday tell my figure skating coach whats going on with me. Its taking over my life and I can't stand it!:(
-I like the song! :) Im going to put it on my iPod.

[IceSkater]

correction: are-area

[Pinkie]

yeah I know what you mean by taking over your life!! sometimes it can get pretty bad & I just feel so vulnerable to the eating disorder, I hate it so much sometimes... its like a never ending cycle... there are good and bad days but its never over!!! I just saw some post a guy had made on here saying we shouldn't be doing it, lol if he had any clue about ED he would know its not that "easy" to stop!